A New Look For This Blog


Starting in the month of May this blog will be showing as a name: RTS.  The url will stay the same.  I am seriously looking at upgrading my plan to a paid one.

This change is one that I have been seriously thinking about for several months.  Sometimes change like this in a website can be detrimental.  I have been experimenting with different designs for a new logo.  

For this blog my focus with be “Mental Health”.  I created a new blog for all things Spiritual, Bible Prophecy A Study In.   For those who are interested in the study of the Scriptures I invite you to join me there too.

Now, I would like you to seriously give me some feedback.  I need all who read this to provide that using the comment section below.  Remember, without you this blog would be lifeless!

Also, I would like to say “Welcome” to all the new follows.  And a big “Thank you” to everyone!

The Crazy World Of Depression

carry-the-world“It’s okay to be crazy and scared and brave at the same time!”
― Kelly Epperson

Crazy Qoutes

There are those days when I think I just want to scream. Scream about what I don’t know, I just want to scream.

Then there are the days where I feel I could take on the world, have all the answers to life’s woes.  Reality though tells me that I don’t know what I am talking about.

Pills, pills, pills.  Take in the morning, take at supper time, take at bed time.  Green pill to get going, red pill to stop, I take more pills than I eat in calories.

Pardon me, but it is just one of those days that thoughts like these take over.  I try to stay positive in such a negative climate.

So, I will carry on, maybe tomorrow will be a day when the crazy world of depression won’t seem to be so bad!

A Day Of Appreciation!


“Nurses dispense comfort, compassion, and caring without even a prescription.”
– Val Saintsbury       Quotes For Nurses

I have had my share of a stay in the hospital.  There is one thing that made the stay endurable was the nurses on staff.  I marveled how they did their work, hour by hour, patient by patient.  They did the heavy lifting.  Yes, the doctors gave the orders, but, it was the nurses that saw to it to have those orders filled.

On the evening news last night near the end of the broadcast they showed a news clip.  It was so heart warming.  Somewhere in New York City at a certain set time in the evening people went to their balconies, stoops, and started clapping, it lasted at least ten minutes.  It was their unique way of thanking all the nurses, doctors, others on the front line in the battle with this virus.

I am thankful that we have such great warriors in medicine they are the healing hands that God has gifted.  They are there in the emergency rooms, the medicine floor, the operating theaters.

This is my way to say to all those nurses, “Thank you”!

I want to encourage you dear reader to find your unique way to say thank you to those on the front lines.  I have learned one thing about the WordPress community, they are some of the most creative people around.

So, please join me to raise a rousing clap of thunder and say “THANK YOU”!


Conquer or Surrender


Being challenged in life is inevitable, being defeated is optional. -Roger Crawford


At this time everyone is facing great challenges.  Every challenge is unique therefore it requires an unique plan to face it.

I have faced many challenges, sometimes I think that it is more than one person deserves.  I have broken bones, recovered from a motorbike accident as a passenger, loss of loved ones, marriages that have fallen apart.  

I look back on all of them and wonder how I made it through some of them.  I did hit a brick wall, a wall the crashed on me with my mental health.  For that challenge I decided not to conquer but, rather I surrendered to it.  My answer was attempted suicide by taking an overdose of sleeping pills.

I know now that lashing out in anger that is destructive, I have learned to channel my anger to achieve constructive results.  The former saw me burn relationships that could never be repaired.  The latter, I now explain the action that angered me, it is not directed to a person.  No name calling, no shaming, etc.,

Now, that doesn’t mean when I am challenge that I lay down like a door mat to be walked on.  It means I have learned in a constructive way when something, someone, has crossed boundaries.

So, once again I have to summon all that I have learned, focus on the situation, conquer the situation, and do not surrender to it!

Comfort Food – Recipe -Diabetic Cheese Cake

My best friend found this recipe and it soon became one of my favorite’s.

I think everyone has their favorite comfort foods, I know I do. One of mine is Reese’s Peanut Butter Cups.

You don’t have to be diabetic to enjoy this melt in your mouth Cheese Cake.


  • 3/4 cup graham cracker crumbs
  • 3 tablespoons butter, melted
  • 1/4 teaspoon ground cinnamon
  • 1/4 teaspoon nutmeg
  • 1 (8 ounce) package cream cheese, softened
  • 1 1/2 cups milk
  • 1 (1 ounce) package cheesecake flavor sugar free instant pudding mix
  • 2 pints fresh strawberries, sliced


Mix together graham cracker crumbs, melted butter, cinnamon, and nutmeg in a bowl.

Press the mixture into an 8 inch pie dish. Refrigerate while making filling.


Beat cream cheese in a mixing bowl with an electric mixer on medium speed until softened, reduce speed to low and gradually beat in milk a little at a time (mixture will be watery.  Use a rubber spatula to scrape cream cheese from the sides of the bowl if necessary.

Beat in the pudding mix until the filling is thick and smooth.  Spoon half of the cream cheese filling into the bottom of the graham cracker crust.  Spread half the strawberries over the filling.

Repeat cheesecake layer and strawberry layer.

Chill pie in refrigerator until set and cold at least 1 hour.


The Detoxification Of My Mind


Woodson Merrell  “Often we see detox as a solitary pursuit, something we have to muscle up for and go it alone. But the truth is that it will be easier and healthier if you find a way to integrate your friends and family into the experience.”
― Woodson Merrell, The Detox Prescription: Supercharge Your Health, Strip Away Pounds, and Eliminate the Toxins Within

I feel safe in saying that all across the globe people’s stress level is probably on extra high.  Everything is at a complete standstill,  jobs, finances, social life, children to tend to and if school age try to teach them at home.

Even the children are stressed out, not being able to play and socialize with their friends. Pent up energy and no place to displace it.

Today when I woke up I decided that it would be the day to completely detox my mind.  Let me explain, in high school I took computer class, this is way before personal computers, one of the first thing we learned about programming was this, “garbage in, garbage out”.  So it is with the mind.

I have had my fill with news and the concentration of Covid-19. So I have been doing things to bring out all the toxic waste in my mind.  I finished reading two books, I prefer paper, but Kindle will do, so I downloaded the book “Fahrenheit 451”.  I am reading up on how a democracy can fall, remember Germany and Hitler.

My television was on, but, I found a science program that I like, “Wonders of The Solar System”, the host is Professor Brian Cox. His voice is calm and peaceful and I have begun to grasp so much about our solar system.

Later I am going to click on I Tunes and listen to Michael Buble.  My daughter gave me a CD of his, his music is great and it is also very relaxing.

I realize everyone will approach the detoxification of their mind differently, Yoga, meditation, hot tea, or any other method that helps let off all the toxic garbage that has built up since this lock down.

So, dear reader, I encourage you to take some time, find some ways to let go and cleanse your mind so that you will feel renewed!


Cabin Fever Anyone?


Where do we enroll in Life 101? Where are the classes dealing with the loss of a job, the death of a loved one, the failure of a relationship? Unfortunately, those lessons are mostly learned through trial by fire and the school of hard knocks. Les Brown
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Over the past several days I have decided to make the most of being mandated stay indoors.

Here are some of the things I am doing to combat my cabin fever:

  • Exploring new music sounds. i.e., some forms of soft rock
  • New authors, new books different than I would normally seek out.
  • Avoid watching too many news channels
  • Take up again some of my crafts.  i.e. this is one you’ll find funny, I crochet afghans

Those are things I am doing to maintain my mental health 

So, I am curious on what you are doing to maintain your mental health?

Keeping Sane In An Abnormal Time


“The ability to continue moving when you are feeling scared, fearful or lazy is the sign of true mental strength.”
― Matthew Donnelly

I have now been in my house for approximately three weeks.  In the past I have fought pneumonia twice.  So, I feel that staying in is best for my psychical health.

The true test is finding enough interests to keep my mental health strong.  I have been reading more, also turning off news channels so I do not get an overload of Covid-19 news.  

I really cannot give advice to anyone about how to stay strong mentally during these trying times.  Every household has different situations.  Many have school age children at home.  Keeping children’s attention is a full time job, no play dates for the younger, too much screen time is not wise.  So, for these parents my heart goes out to you.

Millions across North America and the world find themselves facing rent/mortgages to pay, food to put on the table, clothes on their back.  This stress can keep you awake at night weighing heavily on a person’s mental health.

So, for all those who are facing hard times I will be thinking, praying for you! I hope you are able to keep mental health strong! 

The Construction Of A Blog


“We need a spark to lit a fire inside us. A spark is an inspiration to make art, a fear to find courage, and a pain to provoke strength. A spark is unplanned and unexpected incident that happens in the middle of your ordinary life. After that, it leaves a fire burning in your heart. A fire to achieve, a fire that will keep you going!”
― Jasz Gill – https://www.goodreads.com/quotes/tag/blogger

I thought this might be interesting to some about how I go to write a post.

  1. Find a thought, a word

  2. Try to locate a picture. My favorite three sites are:  a)Pexels  b) Pixabay  c)Public Domain Pictures

  3. Search for a quote that encapsulates my topic.

  4. Write my post.

Those are the basic steps I use to construct my post.

Do you have a method you would use to write your post, if so what is your method?

I just thought this would be fun because at the moment everything is so seriously depressing!

Little Boy, Little Boy


I always love going home anyway; it’s where my roots are. I always like to go back. It’s a good reminder of where I started and the journey that I still have to go on to get where I want to be. Millie Bright
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It is just after 5 a.m. here in Saskatchewan, Canada.  I woke up quite early and the end scene from the Wizard of Oz was playing in my mind. It is where Dorothy is told to click her heels three times and say, “there’s no place like home…”

In times like the world is facing or when I am going through a situation my thoughts turn to where I was raised, to my home.  Maybe, not so much my parents home, but the home of my maternal grandparents.  I always knew the door was open that my grandmother would let me stay with no questions asked.

There is a little boy inside me that wishes he could go home, except home is not where it use to be.  The smell of homemade cooking, maybe if I were lucky some fresh baking from my grandmother.  When my grandfather was alive it was being able to sit with him as he played the guitar and I would sing.

All of those have now gone, I have made my home here in Saskatchewan, and along with my daughter and the grandchildren is where I find welcome and warmth.

Having a best friend, more like the big brother I never had, is also comfort when I am facing hard times.  Always is able to bring a smile to my face, and sometimes a good chuckle.  He knows the best and the worst of me and still he calls me his friend.

Where ever I am I have learned to be content there.  This virus is frightening, to be honest if I didn’t have supports around me I would have to say I would be scared to death.

Please let me give some advice, if you have family, if you are able to go home, if you have friends, you have more than some who are facing this great time of trouble!

Me Too, Me Too!


“Some of the most comforting words in the universe are ‘me too.’ That moment when you find out that your struggle is also someone else’s struggle, that you’re not alone, and that others have been down the same road.” – Unknown

Stop Stigma

One of the most encouraging moments for me is when I am reading different posts and come across the writings of what someone is going through, to find out you are not alone with the same struggle.

So, I continue reading on how they have battled their situation, the steps they have taken to help combat the struggle.  How they have had some of the same ups and downs with their mental health issues.

Even though I have never physically met the writers of the posts here in the WordPress community I find that there is a bond that takes place as they share their inner most feelings knowing that maybe someone might scoff at them.

I know this may seem strange to some, but when I realize that others are facing the same struggles, it is like my world is a bit brighter, my step slightly has more bounce,  a weight lifted from shoulders.

So, to all those who feel that they are alone in their struggles, please know that in this community of bloggers that their are others standing up and saying, “Me too”!



I think people can have a panic attack where your heart is racing, you get shakes and jitters. But you can also feel disconnected. You know what I mean? I can feel depressed.

Today has been a different day for me.  I woke up being jittery, no reason why, just so jittery.  So, I took an Ativan to calm my nerves.  It wasn’t a panic attack for I can recognize them.  It was just plain and simple the jitters.

I realize there are many that probably are having the same feelings.  Feelings of the unknown is very unsettling.  My best friend went to pick up a couple of things in the grocery department, he said it was eerie because some of the shelves in two different stores were empty.

I have come across some very weird conspiracy theories, too many are so strange it automatically should be deleted from the web. Some are trying to scam people by frightening people.

I am not panicking over this covid-19, I am taking all the logical precautions.  I have not been in the company of anyone who has tested positive.  I do not go out very that often, my mobility is limited, I haven’t left my home in at least two weeks.

Being logical, like I use to handle all other situations, is the best way for me to handle and manage this crisis.

So, I follow the science in this pandemic.  Listen to only the best sources. I have been encouraged when I hear Prime Minister Trudeau go before the microphone and press as he gives updates daily.

I have all the assurance that I will survive this for I have survived other great crisis’!


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Really, That’s Not Normal


Vintage Brain – Pixabay.com

“So, this is how it’s become? This is how I’ve become? A walking contradiction? I’m surrounded by people and feel alone. I claim to crave a bit of normalcy but now that I have some, it’s like I don’t know what to do with it, I don’t know how to be a normal person anymore.”
― Gayle Forman, Where She Went

If I am honest things are definitely not normal.  Upside down, inside out, topsy turvy, mad house, those are just some adjectives to describe the new world we are living in.

Gone is the outstretched hand to shake another.  The warm hug from someone we love.  Travel not advised, borders being closed.  Favorite restaurants closed to sitting in to dine.  Places we love to gather in shuttered until further notice. 

Being bi – polar is a world that is hard to understand.  Highs, lows, mood stabilizers, sleeping pills, a whole host of other medications too many to list.

It would be easy to allow myself to sink in sheer panic, nightmares of it being the end of the world, or the opposite, refusing to believe that there really is no danger.

The brain is a marvelous thing how it protects us during times of great distress.  Listening to it though is an exercise all on it’s own.

Nobody really knows how long it will be before we go back to what we recognize as normal.  Yes, there are those who think they have the answer, but, they are the minority.

So, my life will not change much.  I only go out for shopping and doctor’s appointments.  I have resigned myself that no matter what it will be “steady as it goes”!

Frustration Is Thy Name!


“I clench my teeth as tears come. I am fed up. I am fed up with tears and weakness. But there isn’t much I can do to stop them. ~ ‘Tris”
― Veronica RothDivergent

The word “frustration” is the first thing to come to my mind at this time.  My best friend is feeling it along with being totally bored.

Parents are definitely feeling frustrated, at wit’s end, trying to find day care for their young children.  

Businesses are looking at complete bankruptcy if they have to stay closed too long.  Some are able to keep wages flowing to their stay at home workers.  Other businesses are pouring millions of their own money to help with health care supplies, etc.,

Let me be frank, governments are frustrated for they have really never faced this type of emergency.  They are enacting measures they are not sure will do much good.  Yes, limiting the amount of travel, the size of gatherings will ebb the flow of this virus, with the hope of flattening the curve.

***There are some in government who need to take a step back, keep quiet, and if you are going to speak to the public for God’s sake have the facts.  The citizens expect their government to tell the truth, not spinning conspiracies and misinformation.***

In North America records have been broken when it comes to people applying for employment insurance.

I am also somewhat frustrated, not really for me, but for all those who have no one to go to for support mentally.  Face it, it is somewhat assuring to have others to lean on in a time of crisis.

So, I will look deep down to find my inner strength, lean on it, keep myself motivated, and just take a deep breath!

Insecurity, Depression


Depression lies. It tells you you’ve always felt this way, and you always will. But you haven’t, and you won’t. Halley Cornell

Wisdom Quotes About Depression

A preacher friend use to say this “when you are at the end of your rope, tie a knot and hold on.

All through my life I have never liked myself.  Too many things that I thought that I wish I could change them.

As I grew older and started to play music in different churches, etc., I learned how to mask my true feelings.  I could play the Gospel Songs, I would enjoy the moment. It was after the meeting was over, then without anyone around I would begin to feel that heaviness come over me again, again, and again.  Many times I would just wish/pray that I could pass away while I was sleeping.

Growing up there was no “putting on airs” about us.  Mom was a great cook, she always had a hot meal for us.  It was always around six p.m.. We sat together as a family, phone calls from friends was a taboo.  

Then I started travelling with the evangelist.  I found myself in strange situations, sitting down with my hosts for a meal.  There I looked and there were strange silverware, no not strange in how they looked, but, it was that there was more than one fork, etc., 

Glassware was the same.  I learned how to wait until I saw how the host/s started to eat their meals.  I copied their movements. 

Also with what was served as the meal.  I knew better than not to insult the host/s by not eating the meal.  So, I started developing a different taste palette of foods. One food that I soon learned to love was jumbo shrimp.

When it comes to crowds I still have a difficult time mingling with people.  I am self conscious of my teeth.  My teeth are crooked, they just are ugly as far as I am concerned. Because of that insecurity I do not like my picture taken.

I could spend more time writing on this post but the list is way too long.  

So, I am always reminding myself that there are other people who probably have insecurities just like me!


A Personal Message


Dear Reader:

These are turbulent times.  Times of distress, uncertainty, emotions are running high, many not sure how they will keep a roof over their head and food on their table for their family.

Even though we must keep our distance physically we can give our support to our family, friends, and neighbors by picking up the phone and just saying “how are you doing?”

For all those single parents who cannot miss work, seeking help with child care I would like to say I feel your pain.  I am experiencing this with my daughter and my three grandchildren.  Schools have closed for the rest of the school year, extra curricular activities cancelled.  Just yesterday she wrote “wishing you lived closer”.  She knows I would be there in a heart beat.

For all those who consider themselves in the senior categories, many stores are opening for one hour before all other shoppers just for the seniors, for those who are at risk.

Governments are doing what they believe is best but still it does not calm frayed nerves.

As for me I was suppose to have two doctors appointments and both were re-booked for a month from now.

So, if I could I would offer all those who are hurting a warm hug of assurance.  Remember, wherever you live you are not facing this troublesome time alone!

Stay safe!

Fear What?


The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.

Franklin D. Roosevelt

It was during the 1960’s I must have been only about six or seven years old.  The only thing that divided Windsor from Detroit was the Detroit River.

History tells us it was during the riots for civil rights.  I can remember seeing smoke coming from the streets of Detroit.  During that time people were rightly fearing that all the disruption would begin to seep into the streets of Windsor, Ontario.

Fast forward to the 1980’s, Ronald Reagan was President.  News coverage began talking about a new cancer, this was different than had ever been seen before.  The news media began to label it as, “the gay cancer”.  Today we call it AIDS!

Fear began to set in among gay communities from all across North America.  Preachers were banging their pulpits calling the epidemic God’s wrath on Gay people. Death was almost certain if a person was infected from the virus.  The virus attacks the immune system within the body.  As time goes by, reports begin to come across the news mediums about heterosexual women in the continent Africa also infected with AIDS.  People feared rightly if they were to be infected by this virus. 

Fear can work both ways, it can motivate, or it can halt, people.  Fear that motivates scientists to work to find a antidote for disease.  It can also cause a person to completely stop in their tracks fearful of moving forward, fearing the sunrise on the next day.

We have seen also SARS, Middle Eastern Respiratory Syndrome Coronavirus (MERS-CoV), now the world is dealing with a pandemic named Corona Virus.

Fear sometimes overrides logic, which we are seeing with the hoarding of toilet paper and paper towels.  If logic was in place a person would only buy for the amount they need for a stated length of time.

I realize people are fearful, it is just human nature.  I feel I can honestly say, the world will survive this pandemic.

So, for me each time I feel fear of this situation I will take and stretch with a deep breath! 

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Small World Isn’t It?


“We live in a small world, and we all are affected by everything that happens everywhere. And to look at it less selfishly, we also need to be grateful for the luck of where we’re born and how we ended up where we ended up.” ~ Natalie Portman

Small World Quotes

I am old enough to remember that news from across the globe took some time.  Some reached Canada, The United States from journalists embedded with the troops in Vietnam, or by phone from a journalist in an embassy in China and other countries.

Global trading was a small part of our supply chain.  Now automobiles are made with three or more countries involved.  It seems like only seconds for news from countries like China reaches the shores of North and South America.

Now we have several options of communicating with our friends and loved ones.  There is the traditional snail mail, phone call,  then email came on the scene, now with video and software like Skype everyone can do face to face chatting.

This pandemic has reminded me how interconnected we truly are to each other.  Our dependence of a country on a country clear across the ocean.  Financials are also interwoven, even before Wall Street rings the opening bell financiers already now if the market will be up or down because the Futures forecast.

Now with self – imposed isolating the world gets much much smaller.  Countries like Italy imposing a national quarantine leaving only the markets, pharmacies, and banks opened.

It is a small world that we can feel someone else’s pain and discomfort through mediums like WordPress without every meeting face to face with that individual.

So, with this song going through my mind is how I will close this post with the lyrics to this great Disney hit!

It's a Small World

Disneyland Chorus
It's a world of laughter
A world of tears
It's a world of hopes
And a world of fears
There's so much that we share
That it's time we're aware
It's a small world after all

It's a small world after all
It's a small world after all
It's a small world after all
It's a small, small world

There is just one moon And one golden sun
And a smile means
Friendship to ev'ryone
Though the mountains divide
And the oceans are wide
It's a small world after all

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Finding Peace, Missed Opportunities


“Nothing is more expensive than a?missed opportunity.” H.Jackson Brown JR

I was in grade eight nearing my graduation.  We were having dinner when there was a knock at the door.  My mom thought it was one of our friends, she went to the door and there stood my grade eight teacher.  He started talking to my mother about my education after graduation.  First, he wanted my mom to hold me back a year because I was small for my age.  The second thing stunned my mom and me also. He told my mother to encourage me to take the route of getting a law degree. He also said he believed I was smart enough.

All through my life there has been opportunities that came my way.  Usually though I would shrug them off, I was bound and determine to be a musician, then a preacher.  Those opportunities are now missed opportunities.

I still wrestle with some of those missed opportunities.  I often daydream what life would be like if I would have chosen one of them.  I get the “could’ve, would’ve, should’ve moments.

It has been a long road finding peace with those that I missed.  They were like ghosts hanging around in this thing in me called a mind.

How time has changed things.  To even have a shot of a decent life a person needs a university degree.  Just to be a teacher the minimum from what I understand is a Masters degree. Without a degree you may find yourself pumping gas at an all night convenience store.

When I was a Pastor a mother spoke to me and told me that her daughter dropped out of high school. I gave the mother my assurance that I would speak to her.  One Sunday the daughter attended with her mother.  After the service I asked the daughter if I could have a word with her.  I told her that I was a high school dropout, that I regretted every day of my life.  I heard through the grapevine that the daughter went back to school and graduated from school with a nursing degree.  Before she graduated she already had a job waiting for her.

So, today as I ponder over all those missed opportunities I am trying to find any good thing that has come of all that.  I am finding peace with my missed opportunities!

Failure Does Not Define Me


Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts. – Winston Churchill

Quotes about Overcoming Failure

I was in my late thirties to early forties to learn that my failures did not define who I am.

It was something that I probably learned that one failure means you are a failure.  It is almost like you jinx yourself.  You start to try something, before you start it you have already told yourself that you will fail with this venture also.

I once heard a lecturer speak about how you can set yourself up to have a bad day.  You wake up in the morning and you start thinking, ‘this is going to be a bad day’.  You have company and someone makes a statement that you don’t look good.  It sets off something within you and you actually start feeling ill.

I know the definition of insanity; “doing the same thing over expecting different results”.

So, I have learned that one failure does not a failure make!