Leave My Emotions Out Of It!

Of course our feelings matter. But emotional decisions are usually not the best ones. On the other hand, your emotions can affect your decisions whether you like it or not because the effects can occur on the unconscious level.  Leonard Mlodinow


I have never approached the subject of how I made decisions from this view point, making them in an emotional state.

As I think back on my life I have basically always made decisions while in an pressured situation. I made them in haste, many of them when I was angry, then too proud to reverse the decision, that would mean I was wrong.

My suicide attempt was a decision when I was overwrought with anger. I felt like the world was caving in, the walls were closing together to squash me. I now know that was a very stupid, ludicrous move.

Then there was the opposite, no decision made because I was in deep depression. My mood was horrendous, I just didn’t care one way or the other. I would go for days living on coffee, just no appetite, when I did eat it was simply junk food with no nutritious value.

Then when the pendulum swung the other way I was in the state of mania making really crazy, almost dangerous decisions. One time, this story was told to me by my best friend because I had no recall of it. I had a plumber in to fix something, that required me to go under the trailer to shut the water off. My best friend came he had to help me out of the crawl space for I was wacked out due to Oxycontin.

I have made great progress in making decisions. I never make them when angry, not in haste, just with proper logical methods. I give credit to my Psychiatrist and the team at the Mental Health Ward, for I learned I could manage my emotional decisions. Also the cocktail of meds that I take daily.

So dear reader this writer has cleared the hurdle of making decisions in an emotional frame of mind!

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