Suicide Myths – #3

Trigger Warning: This post contains subjects and issues that may be upsetting to some.

Being suicidal isn’t about wanting to die. It’s about quieting the pain inside. –Unknown


Source: Psychology Today

People often commit suicide for rational reasons. – False!

I write this post with some ache in my heart. It is about a young first nation man. I had begun to know the family and also him. I had him come to my home to spend a weekend together. Then I went to his apartment to visit. We had fun talking about things concerning his culture.

Several months passed since seeing him. I then received the news that the young man had committed suicide. They found him hanging from the shower rod in his bathroom.

Back on that day when I swallowed a bottle full of sleeping pills it wasn’t for anything that was rational. I attempted suicide because I felt like I just couldn’t hold onto things that I was told to believe. The attempt wasn’t planned, I hadn’t given much thought prior in doing so. I was upset and angry because of an argument I was having with a certain friend. I grabbed the pills, ran into the bathroom, took the top of the pill bottle off, and then swallowed all of them in one quick gulp. It was not a rational thing, trying to commit suicide over an argument.

One time not so long ago I had to call an ambulance. While in the ambulance I asked about the new drug, new at that time, Naloxone. The ambulance attendant told me that they had used it six times just that morning.

When I was about eight or nine there was a death of a great uncle of mine. The adults were speaking in hushed tones. Eventually, I found out what happened that day. My great uncle was found in the garage with the car running and laying under the exhaust pipe. I don’t believe my great aunt had any idea why he did that. I truly feel the family still has no real answer.

So dear reader, when it comes to have a reason about why people commit suicide, they are no rational reasons.

7 thoughts on “Suicide Myths – #3

  1. There’ve been a few times in my life that I wanted to end it. From my experience, I can agree that the choice isn’t based in logic, it’s clouded by overwhelming emotions that warp your judgment into THINKING that you’re being rational at the time.

    I remember feeling like my back was against the wall and I just didn’t want to live MY life anymore. It didn’t necessarily mean that I wanted to die or hurt myself (because I’m terrified of pain), I just wanted a different, better life. But I didn’t see that as an option.

    It felt like my life (timeline) was moving parallel to what I wanted my life (timeline) to be. I didn’t think the parallels would ever intersect (aka I didn’t think I’d ever achieve my dreams). So I figured, there’s no point in continuing (down this timeline if it doesn’t make me happy).

    Thankfully, I learned that happiness is a choice, not just something that happens to me! 🌞

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