I Can Handle This

 “Challenges are what make life interesting and overcoming them is what makes life meaningful.” — Joshua J. Marine”


In the late eighties I was a passenger on a motor bike going home from work. It was a bright August day in Ontario, Canada when the driver rear ended the car in front of us. The impact sent me flying causing me to land on my backside. I couldn’t move and I probably would have been hit by the cars passing by on the highway, but an ambulance stopped to help get me to the side of the road. Another one came placed me on a backboard to transport me to the hospital.

After the usual tests, x-rays and such I was admitted and taken to my room. I really do not remember much of the first night, but on the next morning a nurse was coming into the room with a tray of things. I moved to look at her, I shocked her and she dropped the tray. I asked her what was the matter. She said, “Mr. Bourne I just came from report and it says that you would be a quadra paraplegic”. When the physician came by he explained to me about my back, he told me that everything was ripped away from my spine. He also was amazed that I was moving around.

I told that to say this, it is a scary time again around here the positivity rate of Covid-19 is on the rise. Governments are trying to get a grip on things. I haven’t left my house lately not even for a doctor’s appointment.

I been thinking about an upcoming surgery for a hip replacement. At times I get concerned about it, questions coming to mind, like, “will I be able to walk afterwards?”. Things like that, things for the most part will never happen, so really there is no need to fuss about it.

Faced with a myriad of things sometimes it is difficult to find something positive to fixate on. Bad news seems to permeate from all corners of the world, not much good news out there. Oh, yes, sometimes there may be a story of human interest that makes me feel warm inside, but, they are few and far in between.

So dear reader, I remind myself I have been through some very tough times and lived to tell it about it. So, I will once again make it through to the other end of the tunnel.

I leave you with a final thought. Anne Murray sang a song some time back, “A Little Good News Today”. I have included it here. Hope you enjoy it! It is needed at this time!

Here We Go Again, aaarrrggghhh!

“The challenge is, the end isn’t coming soon. But it’s coming, and what we need to do is try to have as few [COVID-19] cases as possible between now and the time a vaccine arrives.” CBC, Oct 24, 2020


I started to write this post several days ago, well, at least in my mind. Yet, when I thought I had it together I would sit down at my laptop and the words didn’t seem as great as what was in my thoughts. So, scrub them and hit the trash.

Earlier this week the news started looking grim. I thought to myself, “here we go again”. The number of positive cases of covid-19 started ticking upwards across Canada, America, and around the world.

Once again like earlier this year shutdowns began to take place. In and around Saskatoon, Saskatchewan the Health Minister began ordering the shutdown of bars and clubs.

My mind then turned towards south of the Canadian border. People losing more jobs, rents/mortgages coming due, and no relief coming from big brother. I think about the children once again as schools have been forced to close once more. Schools for many children is the only source to a hot meal.


In America alone the number of deaths are climbing towards five hundred thousands. I thought about the Spanish flu pandemic, about the number of dead reaching 50,000,000 (Source: CDC).

In just one decade later the world would experience the greatest depression lasting four years until 1933. It began in 1929 after the crash on Wall Street. People lost their jobs, their homes, businessmen committing suicide, and long lines outside soup kitchens.

Psychological Impact Of The Great Depression

Historian Harvey Green argues that domestic violence and child abuse increased during the Depression. Family disputes over finances, food, and other basic necessities caused tensions to increase. Men and boys often simply fled the home out of embarrassment, frustration, or the inability to cope with the new economic reality. Thousands of people, young and old, became traveling hobos, riding the rails in search of work or some form of relief.


This is a great challenge for everyone’s mental health. If history is our teacher, this writer believes it is, the number will rise in police calls of heated arguments, abuse spousal and child. I know here in my own city there is already one soup kitchen. With the onset of winter there is a greater demand for homeless shelters. The Salvation Army will probably see an increase of requests for a Christmas hamper. In previous years churches would put together a Christmas dinner for all those who were alone. This year may see a challenge how they can serve the people in the city.

I normally do not write such a long post, but, these thoughts having been weighing on my mind.

So dear reader, it looks like “here we go again”!

Some Random Thoughts

You may have noticed that my posts have been intermittent. First when I don’t have a subject I do not write. Also, I have been doing quite a bit of reading. The list of books I have read mostly deal with one subject matter, the man in the White House. I have gone back to hard cover rather than E-Books. There is something about actually feeling the pages when you turn them.

It has also been difficult for me to write at times because of pain generating from my hip. I can only sit at the lap top for a limited time. My medications at supper time usually means that I do not post much after about six at night.

I went to receive a flu shot. The pharmacist said they are expecting a high turn out for it. She also mentioned that this winter presents a troublesome worry, will people be able to distinguish between the flu and Covid-19. This could overwhelm the ERs in some cities.

Some provinces are returning to shut downs because of the numbers are on the rise with positive infections. I believed that lifting some restrictions was premature. I understand that people want to get back to their lives the way it was before the pandemic. Here in Saskatchewan there are reports of Covid-19 appearing in the school system. This leaves me with great concern about my grandchildren, but, in all children in general.

So dear reader these are just some random thoughts about what has been occupying my mind lately.

It Couldn’t Get Any Worse, Can It?

“I don’t believe that this infection really is being transmitted in waves. It’s more like a coronavirus forest fire where in fact, it just burns, burns and burns. But then as soon as you let up the break, then it all comes back again.”CBS News, Oct 13, 2020


As I listened to the Global National News here in Canada they reported on different provinces once again shutting down certain businesses. Here in my province a popular night club was closed due to the amount of people testing positive traced back to the club.

I went for my MRI Monday night, which I thought was strange they were doing them in the evening. They have added a second shift just to catch up from the shutdowns. I asked the technician if people are worried about going for exams. Her reply was, “everyone”. On may way I couldn’t help notice the markers on the floor with arrows to enter and those to follow to exit.

When they called to book the appointment it’s terrible to think this thought, but, my first thought was, it is because the Premier is seeking another term. I may be wrong, but, long before the virus hit us like a hammer I went for a different MRI back in the fall of 2019, I had waited nine months for it. While talking I asked why can’t there be more shifts to serve more people. Their reply was “if they give the hospitals more money”! So, what changed between then and now, simple, election.

As I hear about the new infection rate going up, places once again being shut down, workers being put on furlough. Leaders openly mocking the scientists about them telling people should be wearing masks, also adhering to physical distancing. People have been raised to believe in the science, then their leaders, but now are wondering who to believe, what to believe. Images of rallies, people in bars, swimmers in Florida and California jammed together shoulder to shoulder.

The number of cases here in Canada now has reached two hundred thousand, while the States total number of cases surpasses eight million, and nearly a quarter of a million have died in that country.

So dear reader, it couldn’t get any worse, can it?

Thanksgiving 2020

“Give thanks not just on Thanksgiving Day, but every day of your life. Appreciate and never take for granted all that you have.”Catherine Pulsifer


It’s Thanksgiving time here in Canada, Monday October 14. I cannot help but think that this Thanksgiving may be somewhat bitter. It will be about who is not at the table, rather than who is at the table. My heart grieves to all who have lost a loved one, a partner, a friend, for them it may feel more like Dickens Scrooge, “bah, humbug”.

Traveling to Grandma’s house for Thanksgiving may actually be turned into a video call on platforms like Zoom, Face Time, etc., The meal may be only for those who live under the same roof. In Canada travel between Provinces is still not encouraged. One of the questions asked when you book an appointment is, “have you traveled outside of the Province”?

Thanksgiving for me will be myself and best friend, then a phone call to my aunt who lives in another Province. My daughter and grandchildren will celebrate their day at home. Maybe I will hear from them, I will be happy if they do call.

Covid-19 has placed it’s mark on Thanksgiving 2020. This blogger will be interested to hearing how the airlines, bus companies, do over this long weekend.

So dear reader now matter where you are when you are reading this, Canadians and Americans, I wish you the best for this Thanksgiving 2020.

October 2, 2020 – President, First Lady Tested Positive, Now In Quarantine

Just as I was about to turn out the lights, shut off the t.v., around 11 – 11:30 p.m. the news came across with multiple news outlets announced the President and First Lady have tested positive for the Covid-19 virus.

Earlier today it was announced that Presidential aide, Hope Hicks, also tested positive. She was with the President in many events since last Monday. She is also in quarantine, and those who she has been in contact with are also being advised to quarantine.

It is still in the early stage on the numbers who have been in close contact with those who have received positive test results for the coronavirus.

For the President this is very serious because of so many factors. His age, seventy-four years old, he is over weight, and also his dietary routine.

So now the whole election campaign has changed on the stop of a dime, news coverage discussing that debates are probably cancel due to those positive test results of the virus. If the President has to quarantine for fourteen days, this means he will only have about fourteen days to campaign.

Some Positive Stuff That Happened While In The Hospital

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Photo by Martha Dominguez de Gouveia on Unsplash

My hospital stay wasn’t all negative, yet there is more to tell, there was some great positive things that happened.

  • Covid-19 test came back negative
  • Tests for any MRSA (superbug) also negative
  • On a truly lighter side, I am just as smart as Donald J. Trump.[maybe I am smarter. I like to read and also believe the science]. Aced the same cognitive test. It is a test to know if there is dementia, Alzheimer’s disease. Also to see if maybe any damage after a stroke.
  • My former Psychiatrist stopped in and had a great visit with her.  It was sort surreal, visiting with her as just a patient who was not under her care. When she went to leave I made a comment, “Dr. just considered me a student who graduated”. She loved to hear all the positive things that have happened since I left her.

So dear reader I just thought today would be a good day to share something uplifting for you to enjoy!

What A Crazy Week

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It is Thursday evening just pass 7:00 p.m. mountain time.  I arrived home tonight and trying to catch up on all the emails, etc., I was admitted Monday with “stroke like” symptoms.

I could not do much online, I could not access the hospital’s WiFi. So, they had a glorified Windows tablet with very, very limited internet service.

I think I was tested, scanned, swabbed, for everything they could think what my problem was.  For those things I will be writing in greater detail in the next several days.

So dear reader, it feels good to be back in my own surroundings, able to have access to the internet.  Stay tuned!

 

The Unseen Enemy

 

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Photo by Alekon pictures on Unsplash

When you are dealing with an invisible enemy,
use most resources as shield, and a bit as a bait.”  ― Toba Beta, Betelgeuse Incident: Insiden Bait Al-Jauza

It knows no boundaries.

It is equal opportunity. It’s victims come from all classes, races, gender, and age.

It is always there in the shadows waiting to attack another victim.  It moves without sound, not slowed down by walls or windows.

It works hand – in – hand with the grim reaper. He has claimed hundreds of thousands, overwhelming all under-takers.

It also attacks people’s mental health, stress levels have shot up one hundred, fifty times.

It has moved into countries and plans on being a boarder for several years.

Yes, this invisible enemy has been quite busy for several months.  Who is this invisible enemy, none other than Covid-19 virus.

I Will Not Panic, That’s My Final Answer!

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“Being under stress is like being stranded in a body of water. If you panic, it will cause you to flail around so that the water rushes into your lungs and creates further distress. Yet, by calmly collecting yourself and using controlled breathing you remain afloat with ease.”
― Alaric Hutchinson,Living Peace: Essential Teachings for Enriching Life

I know, it is easy and almost a cop-out to tell someone “Don’t Panic”.  For something that this writer doesn’t understand but by telling a person that it seems to heighten their panic.

Along with panic there is a close relative emotion that tags along, frustration.  It is almost unavoidable these days not to feel frustration, not to panic realizing that the rent is due this week.

Now mix in insomnia and you have a disaster looking for a place to happen.  Trying to force yourself to go to sleep in the meanwhile images of all the bills that need to be paid but the bank account tells you that you are overdrawn.

No matter who you speak with you can definitely hear the frustration and panic in their voice.  A neighbor is somewhat like me, not going out in hesitation worrying about covid-19.  

Yet, I need to go grocery shopping this week so that the cupboards do not start looking bare.  At least if I go to the big “W” I can go during the first hour that is reserved for seniors, or those who have compromised immune systems. I won’t decide until the very last minute whether I go or have my best friend do my shopping.

So, I all can do in this time and space is to tell myself “Don’t Panic”!

Control?

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One of the major sources of stress, anxiety, and unhappiness comes from feeling as if your life is out of control.

— David Cottrell

In an news article found at: 1130 City News wrote about that the Canadian Mental Health Association is telling the feds that there could be an “echo pandemic” of mental illness.  The article gave a summary about the article, it listed three things.

SUMMARY:
  1. The CMHA is calling on the federal government for more funding to help people struggling with mental health issues
  2.  Association says feds need to help Canadians struggling now, before problem gets worse after COVID-19
  3.  If funding doesn’t come through, CMHA fears an ‘echo pandemic’ of mental health after the health crisis ends

I have paid attention to some interviews that the news has picked up from people who are keeping video diaries during this shutdown.  They all spoke about the anxiety they are feeling.

Some are expressing how they feel helpless because they cannot be with a family member or a friend during their dying hours.

It is a frightening thing to have feelings of not being in control.  Nerves become frayed, tempers flare, depression sets in, all manner of anxieties enters your life.  Physical and emotional abuse ticks up in calls to authorities.

Of what I understand here in Canada the government has already planned for four months of restrictions in place.  In America people are protesting the stay-at-home orders.

When I was living in Toronto that’s when things went spiraling out of control.  My doctor prescribed Prozac, which left me feeling numb.  I was a mess, living but not feeling.

When I first started having panic attacks I still can remember how I felt like everything was out of control.  This lead to my attempted suicide. 

I have no suggestions on how to handle the feeling of being out of control.  Circumstances widely vary from person to person, house to house.

So, all that I can do is brace for a long ride into fall!

Somebody Pass The Salt

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Boredom, anger, sadness, or fear are not ‘yours,’ not personal. They are conditions of the human mind. They come and go. Nothing that comes and goes is you. Eckhart Tolle
Read more at Boredom-Quotes

Around my neighborhood if you were to ask someone how they were doing the reply would be one word, “bored”.  I can imagine this would hold true in any neighborhood in any corner of the world.

There is only so many games of cards you can play, reading books is at a standstill because the library is closed, television has become tiresome trying to keep away from the cable tv.

I do not handle boredom that well I become antsy and uptight.  I just don’t have any idea left on what I can do around my house.  Cooking is at a minimum because eating too much seems to put on the pounds.

My dog Natalie is usually good for a laugh or two.  Nice to have sit by me and just cuddle on the couch while I am reading a Kindle edition of a book.

So, the list is too long to count the number of different emotions I have during any twenty-four hour period.  I wonder how others are coping with this dreaded thing called “boredom”!

 I just need some spice in my life at this moment.  Somebody pass the salt!

Normal, What’s That?

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The problem of living is at bottom an economic one. And this alone is bad enough, even in a period of so-called “normalcy.” But living has been considerably complicated of late in various ways – by war, by questions of personal liberty, and by “menaces” of one kind or another. Votes: 3

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The latest catch phrase is “the new normal“.  Experts on news shows say we will never go back to “normal“.  For some that is frightening, for they need the old normal, structure, schedules, deadlines, etc., I have heard opinions about the reason why prisoners when released back into society and re-offend.  They offer the opinion that some of those are use to the structure of prison life.  They have no skills in coping in a fast paced society.

Now everyone has a different normal.  Mine has changed over the years, some for good, others for the frustration.  I have heard it said that people starting out in the workforce will probably change their career at least two times.

I am not sure what my normal will look like after this turbulent times.  Maybe, I am worrying for naught, I will see.

I realize for those who are bi-polar like me sometimes the unknown can cause anxiety.  In my past things unknown was trouble, I would get jumpy, irritable, almost angry to where I would want to lash out.  It was during these times when a relationship with someone would go up in flames.

So, I hope that when the “new normal” arrives it better come with a handbook!

Just The Facts Ma’am, Just The Facts…

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The human mind can solve the problem of climate change, but the world is ruled by the mind of politicians, and this low mind always produce problems, let alone solve a problem!”
― Mehmet Murat ildan  Climate Change Denial

What I am about to write about one class in high school I am not proud of.  It was my Science class.  The subject was, “evolution”.  At that time I believed pure and simple that it was “creationist”.  I balked at the subject.  I can remember how I argued with the science teacher.  Then came an exam and the subject was about “evolution”. My answer was “God created…”.  Of course I flunked that exam.  I started demanding that my answer be accepted.  The fight lasted for days, finally I believe the principal made a decision that my answer be allowed.  Today, I still believe as a “creationist”, but I probably wouldn’t make a stink over it.

We have seen in the news for several years the theory about vaccines causes autism.  Mothers who refuse having their child vaccinated.  Disease that once was eradicated are now back and thriving, smallpox is one of them.

As of this writing in Canada we have seen six hundred and growing people who have died.  In America there has been twenty-four thousand plus deaths due to the Covid-19 virus. 

I am amazed to the number of people in leadership in America who are stubbornly fighting against the science of this pandemic.  Just in total denial!

One man was shopping and deliberately coughed on the money that he was going to use to pay for his shopping.  A preacher in VA several weeks ago had a church service in spite of the warnings of large gatherings.  He ended up contracting Covid-19. Now in the news today the preacher has now died due to the virus.

So, this fifty-eight year old guy wants just the facts, just the facts!

Take Time To Smell The Roses!

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Getting lost in the ‘big picture’ often prevents us from cherishing the ‘small moments’ that make it all worthwhile…”
― J.R. Wirth   Smell The Roses

On my laptop I have my screen change pictures randomly, today the picture above flashed on my screen.  This is what inspired me to write this post.

I find myself at times being sucked into the abyss called “Covid-19”.  It permeates all facets in the media, t.v., newspapers, online, and there is probably other venues that escapes me at the moment.

For many they have been cut off from the physical support, the one on one socializing.  For a senior person they may only have a landline phone to connect them to family, friends. A neighbor is staying with his mother so that she will not be alone at this critical time.

As I am writing this post I find myself thinking about some great memories that brings a warmth, a smile, and contentment.  Memories like when my daughter was born how that I held her even before they bathed her after the birth.  Watching a friend who I asked if he would like to hold her, watching tears flow freely down his face as he held my daughter.

I have been finding myself thinking about green grass, flowers, vegetable gardens, all things to ease the uneasiness that overtakes me at times.

Seeing a post from Chelsea sharing a picture of her baby boy.  How it brought a smile to my face.  Somehow babies seem to do this for me.  How simple their world is, their only concerns are being fed, kept dry, and feeling love that bonds them to mother, father, siblings, and grandparents.

I am finding some escape by watching one of my favorite channels, Discovery Science. Being amazed at the wonderful universe we are part of.  The majesty that is planet earth as seen from outer space.

So, dear reader if you are feeling anxious, overwhelmed, depressed by the current situations, I encourage you to stop, take time to enjoy the pleasures that are all around.

Stop, Smell The Roses!

On The Front Lines

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“A big round of applause goes to all the doctors, nurses, and medical staff who are working around the clock at hospitals and medical centers around the globe. They are the True Heroes of the World. They are leading from the front and are battling this dreaded disease, the COVID 19, head-on.

At a great risk to their lives, they are working tirelessly for the good and safety of others. They truly deserve to be recognized and appreciated for their incredible ongoing efforts.

God bless them and their families. ”
― Avijeet Das     Medical Professionals

Several posts back I wrote “A Day of Appreciation” celebrating the nurses who work tirelessly at all hospitals.

For this post I would like to tell you about some great doctors and nurses I interacted with at St. Joseph’s Hospital in London, Ontario.  I am not trying to receive sympathy, just shining a light on some great people.

It was the holiday season of 1999 when I received word that my mother had taken ill and was transported to the hospital in London, Ontario.  That if I wanted to see her I would have to hurry before she passes away.

I made several phone calls to help find the money to take a bus from Saskatchewan, Canada to the Windsor area.  The trip would take about seventy-four hours.

I packed a suitcase and headed to the bus station, bought my ticket and boarded the bus.  Wednesday arrived while I was on the bus, I looked down at my watch and thought, “well mom is gone now”.

After a stop in Toronto, Ontario to catch a night of proper sleep, I again boarded a bus for the final hours of my trip.  I arrived and spent a couple of days with family to get caught up on the situation. 

Then was taken to London to see my mother.  No one had prepared for what I was about to see.  She was in an induced comma, lying in the hospital bed with that thin silver blanket over her.  I looked at her and could not believe how she looked.  She was three times her normal size.  What brought her this place was a severe flu which she couldn’t handle because of her body was weakened earlier that year with a stroke.

I had to leave the room for everything started to get bright and I felt flushed.  As I walked out into the hallway I felt a sudden push against my knees causing me to sit down.  It was a nurse who saw me and told me she knew I was about to faint.  Hero number one!

January came and went and soon the calendar turned to February.  About a week and a half into the month a doctor caught me and said he needed to talk to me and the family.  I found a phone booth to call to relay the message that if they wanted to see her alive one more time they needed to come quickly.

Eventually my brother and one uncle, mom’s brother, showed up.  We were shown into a conference room, we take our seats and the doctor begins to explain her condition. Hero number two.  He said that her lungs looked like the bubble wrap that is used to wrap dishes.  They were pressing against her heart.  They tried to move her for x-rays but each time she would go into cardiac arrest.  Finally, he tells us there is no more they can do, we decided to have her taken off all support the next morning.

Now for all the rest of the heroes in this moment.  They moved her to a small bed, all tubes and wires disconnected.  Exactly at ten in the morning they turned off the rest of the supports.  She passed away quietly, never waking up.

There were several nurses along with the doctor there with us.  As I turned to leave I caught all of the nurses tears flowing down their faces and saying my mother’s name telling her good bye.

If by chance you are a nurse reading this, this one man gives you a big salute for your dedication and tirelessly working to make all lives under your care feel less frightened!

THANK YOU, GOD BLESS ALL NURSES AND DOCTORS!

Obsession and Covid-19

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An obsession is a way for damaged people to damage themselves more.     

Mark Barrowcliffe Obsession Sayings

At this moment in time I find myself drawn to what I know can make you fear everything, that thing is news.  They report things over, over, and over again.  The press corp at new conferences will ask the same question so many ways makes my head spin.

Yes, the whole world is feeling the deadly effects of this virus.  Multiple thousands of deaths, thousands upon thousands battling to stay alive with the help of respirators.  Others are sent home to self -isolate, quarantine.

All around me I know most of my neighbors have not left their home since this pandemic started, this includes me.  Some of my neighbors are now completely beside themselves with the worry how are they going to survive.  

In reading many of your blogs I can feel the worry, the concern coming from your words.  I can completely understand where you are coming from.  I have been in the place where I did not know how I was going to pay the rent, put food on my table.  For all of you I am thinking about you!

I sometimes would like to ask the anchor on the news desk if they really understand the person who was just laid off their job at one of many car producers.  Or have they ever known what it is like to truly worry about putting food on the table, or formula for the baby held in the mother’s arms.

So, dear reader please forgive me but lately my obsession has been the news!

A Re-blog: Discouraged and Falling Apart — R-E-A-

I just had to share this here on my blog.

This post written by a young lady, Tina, (R.E.A.L. – Fighting 4 Authenticity was written honestly with great emotions. I feel you just may relate to her feelings about this very hard time we all are experiencing.



Tears. More tears. Over and over this happens. The days drag on and run together. The sadness, the confusion, the anger. I’ve felt more anger in the last few weeks than in the prior I-don’t-even-know-how-long.

via Discouraged and Falling Apart — R-E-A-L

A Day Of Appreciation!

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“Nurses dispense comfort, compassion, and caring without even a prescription.”
– Val Saintsbury       Quotes For Nurses

I have had my share of a stay in the hospital.  There is one thing that made the stay endurable was the nurses on staff.  I marveled how they did their work, hour by hour, patient by patient.  They did the heavy lifting.  Yes, the doctors gave the orders, but, it was the nurses that saw to it to have those orders filled.

On the evening news last night near the end of the broadcast they showed a news clip.  It was so heart warming.  Somewhere in New York City at a certain set time in the evening people went to their balconies, stoops, and started clapping, it lasted at least ten minutes.  It was their unique way of thanking all the nurses, doctors, others on the front line in the battle with this virus.

I am thankful that we have such great warriors in medicine they are the healing hands that God has gifted.  They are there in the emergency rooms, the medicine floor, the operating theaters.

This is my way to say to all those nurses, “Thank you”!

I want to encourage you dear reader to find your unique way to say thank you to those on the front lines.  I have learned one thing about the WordPress community, they are some of the most creative people around.

So, please join me to raise a rousing clap of thunder and say “THANK YOU”!

 

The Detoxification Of My Mind

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Woodson Merrell  “Often we see detox as a solitary pursuit, something we have to muscle up for and go it alone. But the truth is that it will be easier and healthier if you find a way to integrate your friends and family into the experience.”
― Woodson Merrell, The Detox Prescription: Supercharge Your Health, Strip Away Pounds, and Eliminate the Toxins Within

I feel safe in saying that all across the globe people’s stress level is probably on extra high.  Everything is at a complete standstill,  jobs, finances, social life, children to tend to and if school age try to teach them at home.

Even the children are stressed out, not being able to play and socialize with their friends. Pent up energy and no place to displace it.

Today when I woke up I decided that it would be the day to completely detox my mind.  Let me explain, in high school I took computer class, this is way before personal computers, one of the first thing we learned about programming was this, “garbage in, garbage out”.  So it is with the mind.

I have had my fill with news and the concentration of Covid-19. So I have been doing things to bring out all the toxic waste in my mind.  I finished reading two books, I prefer paper, but Kindle will do, so I downloaded the book “Fahrenheit 451”.  I am reading up on how a democracy can fall, remember Germany and Hitler.

My television was on, but, I found a science program that I like, “Wonders of The Solar System”, the host is Professor Brian Cox. His voice is calm and peaceful and I have begun to grasp so much about our solar system.

Later I am going to click on I Tunes and listen to Michael Buble.  My daughter gave me a CD of his, his music is great and it is also very relaxing.

I realize everyone will approach the detoxification of their mind differently, Yoga, meditation, hot tea, or any other method that helps let off all the toxic garbage that has built up since this lock down.

So, dear reader, I encourage you to take some time, find some ways to let go and cleanse your mind so that you will feel renewed!

 

Keeping Sane In An Abnormal Time

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“The ability to continue moving when you are feeling scared, fearful or lazy is the sign of true mental strength.”
― Matthew Donnelly

I have now been in my house for approximately three weeks.  In the past I have fought pneumonia twice.  So, I feel that staying in is best for my psychical health.

The true test is finding enough interests to keep my mental health strong.  I have been reading more, also turning off news channels so I do not get an overload of Covid-19 news.  

I really cannot give advice to anyone about how to stay strong mentally during these trying times.  Every household has different situations.  Many have school age children at home.  Keeping children’s attention is a full time job, no play dates for the younger, too much screen time is not wise.  So, for these parents my heart goes out to you.

Millions across North America and the world find themselves facing rent/mortgages to pay, food to put on the table, clothes on their back.  This stress can keep you awake at night weighing heavily on a person’s mental health.

So, for all those who are facing hard times I will be thinking, praying for you! I hope you are able to keep mental health strong! 

Jitters

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I think people can have a panic attack where your heart is racing, you get shakes and jitters. But you can also feel disconnected. You know what I mean? I can feel depressed.

Today has been a different day for me.  I woke up being jittery, no reason why, just so jittery.  So, I took an Ativan to calm my nerves.  It wasn’t a panic attack for I can recognize them.  It was just plain and simple the jitters.

I realize there are many that probably are having the same feelings.  Feelings of the unknown is very unsettling.  My best friend went to pick up a couple of things in the grocery department, he said it was eerie because some of the shelves in two different stores were empty.

I have come across some very weird conspiracy theories, too many are so strange it automatically should be deleted from the web. Some are trying to scam people by frightening people.

I am not panicking over this covid-19, I am taking all the logical precautions.  I have not been in the company of anyone who has tested positive.  I do not go out very that often, my mobility is limited, I haven’t left my home in at least two weeks.

Being logical, like I use to handle all other situations, is the best way for me to handle and manage this crisis.

So, I follow the science in this pandemic.  Listen to only the best sources. I have been encouraged when I hear Prime Minister Trudeau go before the microphone and press as he gives updates daily.

I have all the assurance that I will survive this for I have survived other great crisis’!

 

A Personal Message

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Dear Reader:

These are turbulent times.  Times of distress, uncertainty, emotions are running high, many not sure how they will keep a roof over their head and food on their table for their family.

Even though we must keep our distance physically we can give our support to our family, friends, and neighbors by picking up the phone and just saying “how are you doing?”

For all those single parents who cannot miss work, seeking help with child care I would like to say I feel your pain.  I am experiencing this with my daughter and my three grandchildren.  Schools have closed for the rest of the school year, extra curricular activities cancelled.  Just yesterday she wrote “wishing you lived closer”.  She knows I would be there in a heart beat.

For all those who consider themselves in the senior categories, many stores are opening for one hour before all other shoppers just for the seniors, for those who are at risk.

Governments are doing what they believe is best but still it does not calm frayed nerves.

As for me I was suppose to have two doctors appointments and both were re-booked for a month from now.

So, if I could I would offer all those who are hurting a warm hug of assurance.  Remember, wherever you live you are not facing this troublesome time alone!

Stay safe!