I Just Won’t…

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“Just because you fail once doesn’t mean you’re gonna fail at everything.”
― Marilyn Monroe

I am sure I could make a safe bet in saying that at one time or another everyone has wanted to just give up.

I have felt that way many times in my life.  One time I tried was my overdose of sleeping pills.  It was the start of learning about myself.  Who I really was, what my worth was, how deal with my emotions in a healthy way, not in anger or frustration.

That ordeal was back in the early nineties.  I can proudly say I am not that person before the complete breakdown.  I very seldom now get too upset about things.  Last winter was case in point with that.  I had several plumbing episodes, not much in the bank, no credit card.  I phoned the one plumbing company that I knew.  After explaining my situation the owner took a chance on me and allowed to make payments on the work that was done.  I didn’t disappoint him, now I have a good credit rating with that company. Plumbing and heating problems now can receive attention and I keep my composure.  By the way, a plumber in this town makes ninety-nine dollars an hour.  My one bill alone was over three hundred dollars.

I have learned over the years to take everything in steps, keep calm, talk or think it through.  It is amazing the difference doing it that way instead of trying to solve a problem when I am totally frustrated and my nerves frayed.

So dear reader, my message is clear, I just won’t allow my circumstances dictate how I act or react in any given situation!

Arrrrgggggghhhh!!

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We are buried beneath the weight of information, which is being confused with knowledge; quantity is being confused with abundance and wealth with happiness.

I have been having what I call “brain aches”.  It feels like some wires are not connected properly.  I can be listening to something but if you asked me what was said I would tell you I haven’t a clue.

My usual excuse would be blame it on the medications.  But I wake up and still feel like this.  I have to think what tv programs did I listen to the night before, I just cannot remember.

I find myself frustrated, cranky, and all that goes with those two things.  I truly cannot put my finger on the issue, yet I know somewhere deep there must be one.

If I feel this way, what does the person who has not been able to work at his/her job feel like.  They have to put food on the table, keep a roof above their heads.  Their level frustration must be at eleven!

Then their are all those who are grieving but cannot give their loved one a proper home going.  How must they feel?  I can imagine the utter hopelessness they must be experiencing through everything.  It truly breaks this heart of mine.

So, this fifty-eight year old former pastor prays that there will be a relief in the near future soon!

I Will Not Panic, That’s My Final Answer!

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“Being under stress is like being stranded in a body of water. If you panic, it will cause you to flail around so that the water rushes into your lungs and creates further distress. Yet, by calmly collecting yourself and using controlled breathing you remain afloat with ease.”
― Alaric Hutchinson,Living Peace: Essential Teachings for Enriching Life

I know, it is easy and almost a cop-out to tell someone “Don’t Panic”.  For something that this writer doesn’t understand but by telling a person that it seems to heighten their panic.

Along with panic there is a close relative emotion that tags along, frustration.  It is almost unavoidable these days not to feel frustration, not to panic realizing that the rent is due this week.

Now mix in insomnia and you have a disaster looking for a place to happen.  Trying to force yourself to go to sleep in the meanwhile images of all the bills that need to be paid but the bank account tells you that you are overdrawn.

No matter who you speak with you can definitely hear the frustration and panic in their voice.  A neighbor is somewhat like me, not going out in hesitation worrying about covid-19.  

Yet, I need to go grocery shopping this week so that the cupboards do not start looking bare.  At least if I go to the big “W” I can go during the first hour that is reserved for seniors, or those who have compromised immune systems. I won’t decide until the very last minute whether I go or have my best friend do my shopping.

So, I all can do in this time and space is to tell myself “Don’t Panic”!

Frustration Is Thy Name!

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“I clench my teeth as tears come. I am fed up. I am fed up with tears and weakness. But there isn’t much I can do to stop them. ~ ‘Tris”
― Veronica RothDivergent

The word “frustration” is the first thing to come to my mind at this time.  My best friend is feeling it along with being totally bored.

Parents are definitely feeling frustrated, at wit’s end, trying to find day care for their young children.  

Businesses are looking at complete bankruptcy if they have to stay closed too long.  Some are able to keep wages flowing to their stay at home workers.  Other businesses are pouring millions of their own money to help with health care supplies, etc.,

Let me be frank, governments are frustrated for they have really never faced this type of emergency.  They are enacting measures they are not sure will do much good.  Yes, limiting the amount of travel, the size of gatherings will ebb the flow of this virus, with the hope of flattening the curve.

***There are some in government who need to take a step back, keep quiet, and if you are going to speak to the public for God’s sake have the facts.  The citizens expect their government to tell the truth, not spinning conspiracies and misinformation.***

In North America records have been broken when it comes to people applying for employment insurance.

I am also somewhat frustrated, not really for me, but for all those who have no one to go to for support mentally.  Face it, it is somewhat assuring to have others to lean on in a time of crisis.

So, I will look deep down to find my inner strength, lean on it, keep myself motivated, and just take a deep breath!

Mental Health & Time Management

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“To conquer frustration, one must remain intensely focused on the outcome, not the obstacles.” – T.F. Hodge

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I came upon the above quote and it struck me quite intensely. 

I have learned a few things about mental health and time management.

  1. Never go shopping when tired: a panic attack just waiting to happen
  2. For appointments try to get the first one in the morning: the rest of the day I can rest if need be
  3. I try to get at least eight hours of sleep a night: if I don’t I find that I am jittery all day with problems focusing
  4. Eat at regular schedule time.
  5. Car rides: when I am tired major panic attack, always grabbing for the dash board
  • Now I know that most people work, so, the way they would manage time would look quite different than myself.
  • Most have families they are raising which demands time.
  • Others are students in college and university.

So, with proper time management I can avoid frustrations and have a more peaceful day!