“Those of us with chronic pain have something unique to offer, not in spite of our pain, but because of it. It’s okay to grieve the losses of chronic illness. It’s okay to be broken; everyone is in some way. Just because we’re unfixable doesn’t mean we’re worthless.”
― Allison Alexander, Super Sick: Making Peace with Chronic Illness
In the past several weeks I have not been writing with any consistency. It has been hit and miss. It is not because I have nothing to write about, my desktop is full of shortcuts linking to writing ideas. Series that I have started, like the “Myths” about mental illness and also suicide.
For example, last night I wasn’t able to get an unbroken sleep. Each time I moved I would wake up because of pain. This pain also keeps me from sitting for any amount of time that would allow me to write.
Depression on it’s own can rob a person of sleep, it is the same with pain. Put the two together and you have a walking disaster.
When in treatment the advice for when you couldn’t sleep, was to get up and do something that was calming. That advice works well when only you are dealing with depression. It doesn’t work that way because just getting your feet on the floor can be an ordeal.
So dear reader if you are experiencing chronic pain that is affecting your mental health my sympathies are with you!
***sorry if this seems disjointed, my brain has gone blank***
“Create. Not for the money. Not for the fame. Not for the recognition. But for the pure joy of creating something and sharing it.”
― Ernest Barbaric
I have written about why I started blogging, group session gave us different ways to handle depression.
What I haven’t written about are some of the lessons that blogging has taught me along this journey.
I have always loved to read, blogging however has instilled in me the joy of writing. Now I am no Hemingway, but, I look back over the years I see quite a difference in the way, the style of my writing.
Here are some other lessons I have been taught since blogging:
- It has given me purpose. Purpose that I felt I had lost when I stepped down from active ministry.
- It has opened up so many doors. The people I have had the pleasure of getting to know them through their own blogs. Also when they interact with myself.
- That we have more in common than that which we are different.
- I now know I am not the only one with some of the struggles I face from day to day.
- I have been reminded that on the whole people really are warm and caring.
There are probably many more lessons since I started this journey. All in all though I can honestly proclaim, “I have no regrets”.
So dear reader I would encourage you to do a deep dive within yourself to find some lessons you have learned since you started blogging.
“Around here, however, we don’t look backwards for very long. We keep moving forward, opening up new doors and doing new things, because we’re curious…and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths.”
― Walt Disney Company
I have been thinking whatever happen to the child-like curiosity that I use to have.
Here are some things I have been curious about;
- Why do people who are named Richard have the nick name “Dick”…hmmmm
- Why do people who are name Robert have the nick name “Bob”…hmmmm
- Why do people who are named William have the nick name “Bill”…hmmmm
- How long does it take for a pot of water to boil if you are watching…lol
- Do you really have to list alphabetically the names of a couple. Nancy, Ralph. So on, and so on….hmmmm
- Is it being
- When dating does the guy still hold the door open for the female, pull out her chair for her to sit down.
- Is it alright to go “double dutch” or does the guy still pay for everything…hmmmm
I woke up this morning with this idea. I thought it would be nice to have some fun. Life lately has been so serious. I am guilty for I take myself too seriously.
So dear reader, do you have things that make you say hmmmmm?
“Being under stress is like being stranded in a body of water. If you panic, it will cause you to flail around so that the water rushes into your lungs and creates further distress. Yet, by calmly collecting yourself and using controlled breathing you remain afloat with ease.”
― Living Peace: Essential Teachings for Enriching Life
I know, it is easy and almost a cop-out to tell someone “Don’t Panic”. For something that this writer doesn’t understand but by telling a person that it seems to heighten their panic.
Along with panic there is a close relative emotion that tags along, frustration. It is almost unavoidable these days not to feel frustration, not to panic realizing that the rent is due this week.
Now mix in insomnia and you have a disaster looking for a place to happen. Trying to force yourself to go to sleep in the meanwhile images of all the bills that need to be paid but the bank account tells you that you are overdrawn.
No matter who you speak with you can definitely hear the frustration and panic in their voice. A neighbor is somewhat like me, not going out in hesitation worrying about covid-19.
Yet, I need to go grocery shopping this week so that the cupboards do not start looking bare. At least if I go to the big “W” I can go during the first hour that is reserved for seniors, or those who have compromised immune systems. I won’t decide until the very last minute whether I go or have my best friend do my shopping.
So, I all can do in this time and space is to tell myself “Don’t Panic”!
“The ability to continue moving when you are feeling scared, fearful or lazy is the sign of true mental strength.”
I have now been in my house for approximately three weeks. In the past I have fought pneumonia twice. So, I feel that staying in is best for my psychical health.
The true test is finding enough interests to keep my mental health strong. I have been reading more, also turning off news channels so I do not get an overload of Covid-19 news.
I really cannot give advice to anyone about how to stay strong mentally during these trying times. Every household has different situations. Many have school age children at home. Keeping children’s attention is a full time job, no play dates for the younger, too much screen time is not wise. So, for these parents my heart goes out to you.
Millions across North America and the world find themselves facing rent/mortgages to pay, food to put on the table, clothes on their back. This stress can keep you awake at night weighing heavily on a person’s mental health.
So, for all those who are facing hard times I will be thinking, praying for you! I hope you are able to keep mental health strong!