Some Thoughts Since I Last Posted

I have enjoyed my time to re-connect with friends, to spend some time finding myself. I have kept myself busy reading, listening to some of my favorite music, and also, my break from watching cable news.

I feel great and I have been adjusting to life without pain, or heavy pain killers. I still am struggling with my sleep and really do not know where to find the answer.

I had my last appointment with the therapist and I even gave her some surprises along the way. It has only been since May for the surgery, but yet, it feels like it is further away than just three months.

I have some catching up to do with reading all of the blog posts that I follow. What I found amazing was the number of people who have started to follow this blog. For that I am truly thankful!

Not really sure about what future blog posts will deal with. I realize there is much to write about concerning “mental health”. Ideas are running through my brain. Some will never see daylight, while others are piecing themselves together.

Canada is facing a federal election and politicians wasted no time making promises of what they will do if elected. I do not hold much hope in the polls. The only poll that counts is on election day. Pundits are saying Canadians may not know the results for a couple of weeks. I am sure there will be knocks at my door, candidates asking for my support. I never tell them which way I will be voting. For me that is something I keep to myself, no signs on the lawn from any party.

School here starts back on September 1 and for this guy I am thrilled. It will now be safe to shop without being over-taken by children who have found a way to break from the grips of their parents.

Soon thoughts will turn to Thanksgiving Day here in October. In America they celebrate that day in November, with the Macy’s Parade signaling the start of the Christmas season.

So dear reader, it feels good to pen some thoughts, somewhat disjointed, but nevertheless, some things that I have been contemplating during my “time out”. How has your summer been? I would like to hear from you!

Time Out

I find myself both mentally and physically drained. I feel the main culprit is the hip surgery because of the stress I was under and in some ways still there. It has been a long road from finding what the cause of severe pain, to the actual diagnosis that my hip needed replacing.

Another factor that is adding to the above factors is that I am weaning off opioid painkillers. For the past week I have my circadian rhythm thrown off. I am not having deep sleep and the sleep I do get is minimum, so I am exhausted during the day and barely functioning.

This leads to the reason of this post. I am going to take a time out from blogging over the summer, but will check in from time to time to catch up on some reading. During this time I will be gathering my notes and relevant posts to start work on a book that I have wanted to write since leaving active ministry.

Also, I am going to recharge by taking in some necessary reading of three new books I have. One is ” Making Sense of Psychiatric Diagnosis: Understanding the DSM-5 by Ashley L Peterson. Another is a book that was reviewed by Ashley L. Peterson on her blog www.Mentalhealth@home.org, “Blackness Interrupted: Black Psychology Matters” by Nicól Osborne and Tamera Gittens. Then last on the list is a new book written by CNN Prime Time Host, Don Lemon, “This Is the Fire: What I Say to My Friends About Racism “.

So dear reader, this exhausted and drained blogger will be back near the end of August. I hope you will be there when I return!

Blogging Helps Keeping My Sanity

The statistics on sanity are that one out of every four Americans is suffering from some form of mental illness. Think of your three best friends. If they’re okay, then it’s you. Rita Mae Brown
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***Inspired by Ashley of mentalhealthathome.org. Her post, How Do We Communicate? Thank you Ashley!

At this time of my life I really do not have many sources that gives me some space to relate with others. My phone doesn’t ring all that much. If it does it is usually my friend, daughter, aunt, or a spammer.

The weather has turned nice which I was able to open the window and air out my house. It also allowed me to take some deep breaths to refresh my lungs and my being. Before this turn in the weather I was suffering with cabin fever and how I really wanted to go walking through a store to do some shopping.

For my upcoming appointment with the surgeon I had to search out a different form to take me. My friend remembered one such service that offers rides for those who are physically struggling. I will have to use my wheelchair, that rules out for my friend to take me. I doubt very much I could ride in his car for it rides low.

I have been trying my utmost to find ways to keep my brain alert and functional. Reading is my favorite in accomplishing that task. I also do Sudoku once in awhile, and my favorite game on the computer is Mahjong.

Of course there are the times where I can watch some curling or hockey with my best friend. It passes the time and we joke around with each other. He fills me in with news from around the city and things that are happening within my neighborhood.

Then there is my dog, she can do the craziest things which will make me laugh. Once in a while she will hop onto the couch and cuddle next to me. She does this usually as I am reading, which calms me from any anxiety I have at that moment.

By far, the only other outlet I have is right here on WordPress. I enjoy reading all the different posts and about what is happening in other people’s world. I like the communicating back and forth with others. I am not always on WordPress lately, so when I do log in, I truly like how I can escape, even for a few minutes, from my own little space and world. If I find someone new that has visited my blog I always take time to check out their blog. I have found some great gems out there to read and sometimes follow!

So dear reader, in a world where I could lose my sanity thinking about all that I will have to face one thing remains certain, blogging helps keep my sanity!

Some Random Thoughts

You may have noticed that my posts have been intermittent. First when I don’t have a subject I do not write. Also, I have been doing quite a bit of reading. The list of books I have read mostly deal with one subject matter, the man in the White House. I have gone back to hard cover rather than E-Books. There is something about actually feeling the pages when you turn them.

It has also been difficult for me to write at times because of pain generating from my hip. I can only sit at the lap top for a limited time. My medications at supper time usually means that I do not post much after about six at night.

I went to receive a flu shot. The pharmacist said they are expecting a high turn out for it. She also mentioned that this winter presents a troublesome worry, will people be able to distinguish between the flu and Covid-19. This could overwhelm the ERs in some cities.

Some provinces are returning to shut downs because of the numbers are on the rise with positive infections. I believed that lifting some restrictions was premature. I understand that people want to get back to their lives the way it was before the pandemic. Here in Saskatchewan there are reports of Covid-19 appearing in the school system. This leaves me with great concern about my grandchildren, but, in all children in general.

So dear reader these are just some random thoughts about what has been occupying my mind lately.

Still Can Learn

“The way for a young man to rise is to improve himself in every way he can, never suspecting that anybody wishes to hinder him.” – Abraham Lincoln


Every once in awhile I need something to inspire me, to motivate me. It is easy to allow myself to enter into rut. It’s too easy just to sit in front of the television without any substance in the program. My body is on the couch or in bed but my mind is a total blank, something like one would see in the old television series, “Twilight Zone”.

I believe it was this past Thursday I either read or heard it that President Lincoln had no formal education, but was a lawyer before he was assassinated. That was like a punch to my forehead.

The other day while reading a post on Ashley’s blog Mental Health@Home she did a book review “Don’t Believe Everything You Feel“. So, I turned on my Fire 7 tablet, searched for the book, bought the e-book and now I am in the midst of reading it.

With the onslaught of winter approaching means it is time to read even more. I love reading the headlines in the papers, the blogs here on WordPress. My interests vary widely in what I read everything from biographies, crime, how to’s, all things Bible.

So dear reader, if President Lincoln can teach himself law to become a lawyer, I guess I can do my best to keep on learning!

The Best Investment Plan

“Invest time and energy in your well being. Create an atmosphere of emotional safety for yourself.”
― Amy Leigh Mercree


If there is one thing I have learned about surviving depression is that it is on me to maintain my emotional health. I need to spend time, effort, and diligence so that I do not backslide into depression causing me to have to start again.

It is not up to others to make sure that I am taking care. Yes, they can express their concern, asking me how I am doing. Yet, they have no power to twist my arm to invest in my well being.

Some things I have done to invest in my good mental health:

  • Admit that I need help, then seek out the help
  • Listen to the Physicians, Psychiatrists, Mental Health Nurses
  • Also listen to others who also have/or are dealing with depression
  • Find safe outlets to have a place to express your feelings, or your thoughts
  • I found ways to enhance my mental health. I chose blogging, reading, and when able cooking and baking.
  • I have learned to shut out all influences that may trigger the wrong responses that may harm my mental stability
  • When I slip/fail I have learned not to stay down, but, get back up and learn from those failures.
  • Just keep an open mind to things that I can add to my to-do list that will bring me to my desired outcome.

I cannot tell you, promise, guarantee that what I have done will work for you. These are just some steps that I took to invest in my good mental health.

So dear reader here is what I can guarantee you, the best investment you can ever make is to invest in you!


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Feel Inspired?

You’re always going to write and draw inspiration from things that you’re feeling, things that you’ve felt. It’s kind of impossible not to unless you’re writing a song and there’s an exact scenario that you’re trying to write a song for. Harry Styles
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The thing that hath been, it is that which shall be; and that which is done: and there is no new thing under the sun.[emphasis mine]


I read quite a few blog posts each and every day, the one thing that stands out and amazes me is, where does everyone find so much inspiration. No two posts are the same, whether in structure, wording, style, category.

So I ask myself where do you find inspiration?

  • Art
  • Music
  • Poetry
  • Television
  • News
  • Reading
  • Dreams
  • Nightmares
  • Personal Life
  • Experiences
  • Friend

As you can see the above list is quite lengthy, I am sure there are others that can be added.

Sometimes I find myself struggling in this category, like today I started a post with a certain subject only to realize I have written about it not that long ago. Therefore this post came from that moment.

So dear reader I would ask you to take a moment and tell me in the comment area where do you find your inspiration?


Write, Right, Or Read First.

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Read, read, read. Read everything – trash, classics, good and bad, and see how they do it. Just like a carpenter who works as an apprentice and studies the master. Read! You’ll absorb it.
Then write. If it’s good, you’ll find out. If it’s not, throw it out of the window.” 
― William Faulkner  Quotes About Writing

I have been doing some reading.  Read a best seller about “Trump the stable genius”, one about tyranny, and now reading George Orwell’s book “1984”.

I honestly love to read, prefer hard copy, but sometimes the price dictates for me so at times I have to use the Kindle E-Book.

Somewhere in my memory is the thought that conveyed that if a man reads he can self educate.  I have looked to find the exact quote so I can give it the proper author.

I still use the methods learned in high school about how to structure an essay, etc.,  The other part of me is still to tie in the ending with the beginning thought. 

Then, there is still part of me about ministerial pastoral to leave a message on a positive note.

I can understand for some taking time to read would be such a luxury.  They have such a hectic life with many activities the whole day.  So, maybe if one can, steal away some time to pick up a book and read.

Reading allows me to escape into a world other than my own.  A time to forget the pressures that are on me day and night.  It allows my brain to switch focus, gives my mind something other than bi-polar information.

I write for it is for me in many ways that curbs my random, scattered shot thoughts.  I can express my thoughts in an orderly fashion.  Yes, there are extra benefits, when people read they can click “like” or share their thoughts in the comment section under a post.

I write that shapes my focus away from the news of the day.  At the moment there is only so much a person can take about how many new infections, or how many died during a twenty-four period.

Writing is a release valve on depression, like the valve used on pressure cookers.

So, here it is the ending to this post!  I just wanted to give you a bit more insight of what truly makes me tick!

 

Cabin Fever Anyone?

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Where do we enroll in Life 101? Where are the classes dealing with the loss of a job, the death of a loved one, the failure of a relationship? Unfortunately, those lessons are mostly learned through trial by fire and the school of hard knocks. Les Brown
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Over the past several days I have decided to make the most of being mandated stay indoors.


Here are some of the things I am doing to combat my cabin fever:

  • Exploring new music sounds. i.e., some forms of soft rock
  • New authors, new books different than I would normally seek out.
  • Avoid watching too many news channels
  • Take up again some of my crafts.  i.e. this is one you’ll find funny, I crochet afghans

Those are things I am doing to maintain my mental health 

So, I am curious on what you are doing to maintain your mental health?

On The Lookout!

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I feel confident imposing change on myself. It’s a lot more fun progressing than looking back. That’s why I need to throw curve balls. David Bowie
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For this post I decided to do something a little different.  I have written about how and why I write.  

Now I would like to jot down some things I look for when I read other blogs.  They may contain all or just one or two.  Then I would like to hear what you look for.

  • Is it relevant
  • Do I relate to it
  • Does it contain information that I can use
  • How do I feel while reading it
  • Would I like to read more from the same blogger
  • Is it a blog that I would tell others about

Those are just some things that I may look for in blogs.

Ask yourself, what is it that I look for in a blog?

Now For Something Different

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Here is something that I have been doing lately finding it quite interesting.  Giving me hours of material to read.

Within the WordPress reader I just pick at random any subject, not one that I am interested in, hit the search and just start reading.

I have found some great writing comparable to going to your local library.  If I find a post that I like I click the “like”.  Some blogs I decide to follow.

Go ahead, try it, expand your horizon!