Crisis Critical – Covid – 19


“In times of stress, the best thing we can do for each other is to listen with our ears and our hearts and to be assured that our questions are just as important as our answers.”
― Fred Rogers,The World According to Mister Rogers: Important Things to Remember

It is my understanding the stress of how to pay the bills the lack of money is probably the number one cause of domestic violence.

In these desperate times it is a fair guess that on every person around the world are stressed about their money situation.

When I was seventeen I had a job working in an orchard.  They were long days but at least it was a job.  I had just bought my first car a 1973 Ford Pinto Station Wagon.  I was putting a lot of miles driving back and forth from where I was living.

I decided to move into my first place an apartment over a bank in the next town from where I was working.  So, I move in furnished with bits and pieces family had that I could use.

Now comes the bad part.  I picked up my grandmother to go grocery shopping with me.  I picked up what I thought I would need to get me through the next two weeks.  I was a happy camper until I went to the cashier.  She put everything through, gave me the total.  I looked at my wallet to pay for the groceries and when it was all done I had very little extra.  I stood there in line crying.

My daughter was born in 1985 and we were living in a very small one bedroom apartment.  Times were tough for me for finances were thin.  There were times when it came down to buying baby formula or putting gas in the tank.  The baby’s needs always took priority.

I realize and understand the pressures that are felt when we are stressed about our financial needs.  Here in Canada there are some relief measures taking place.  They are expecting over three million people to put in a claim this next week.  Adults that qualify will receive five hundred dollars a week.  That is not much when you have rent or a mortgage to pay.

A cold chill comes over me when I think of what type of stories we will hear a month from now when the relief finances are just not enough.  The Canadian Government has set this up for at least four months.

So, dear reader, I am not sure what may happen but I have a feeling were are in this for a protracted period of time.

I will be praying for our country, our continent, our world, as we move forward.

Obsession and Covid-19


An obsession is a way for damaged people to damage themselves more.     

Mark Barrowcliffe Obsession Sayings

At this moment in time I find myself drawn to what I know can make you fear everything, that thing is news.  They report things over, over, and over again.  The press corp at new conferences will ask the same question so many ways makes my head spin.

Yes, the whole world is feeling the deadly effects of this virus.  Multiple thousands of deaths, thousands upon thousands battling to stay alive with the help of respirators.  Others are sent home to self -isolate, quarantine.

All around me I know most of my neighbors have not left their home since this pandemic started, this includes me.  Some of my neighbors are now completely beside themselves with the worry how are they going to survive.  

In reading many of your blogs I can feel the worry, the concern coming from your words.  I can completely understand where you are coming from.  I have been in the place where I did not know how I was going to pay the rent, put food on my table.  For all of you I am thinking about you!

I sometimes would like to ask the anchor on the news desk if they really understand the person who was just laid off their job at one of many car producers.  Or have they ever known what it is like to truly worry about putting food on the table, or formula for the baby held in the mother’s arms.

So, dear reader please forgive me but lately my obsession has been the news!

A Re-blog: An Easy Method for Dealing with Heightened Anxiety and Panic Attacks in these Difficult Times — Life Beyond Booze

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My Previous Encounter With Isolation

Image by Klaus Hausmann from Pixabay

Several years ago I was admitted to the hospital with a case of pneumonia.  Within the next twenty-four hours I developed a red spot rash over my entire body.  I showed them to a nurse which notified the doctor.

After the doctor left there was a phlebotomist was taking some blood.  Soon after that they put a sign on my door that I was in isolation.  They suspected measles.  I have never had measles.  My sisters all contracted mumps, chicken pox, measles.  My brother and myself did not end up with any of those.  I was a married adult when I had a case of chicken pox, no thanks to a mother who brought their child while he was contagious to Sunday School.

Back to the isolation.  I now am in isolation, no visitors, nurses gown up like they are entering a war zone.  I am not sure how many days that it lasted, but, it really tried my sanity.  I was thankful that I could call my best friend, also my daughter tried to call every morning.  I passed the days away watching t.v. and working on my laptop.

Finally the results of the blood work came back, no measles.  This had my doctor perplexed.

I began to work backwards to see if I could think of what I may have done different that would cause something like this to happen.  I am use to going through the process of elimination because I have certain food allergies that will cause a migraine.

Here’s the results of my backward tracing.  It came to be that I did have an allergy, it was the actual hospital bedding that was the culprit.  I had my best friend bring me my own bedding, I had a hospital bed at home so I knew my bedding would fit. Within thirty-six hours the measles like rash began to disappear. 

So, as you can see, this lock down with the Covid – 19 virus isn’t rattling me because I had a period of isolation already and came out the other side! 

WordPress Difficulties

I have just noticed that many of the blogs I follow are not showing up in the WordPress reader.

However, I did go through all the ones that I follow, if it had not been updated more than 2 months I un-followed that blog.

If you have been wondering why I am not interacting with you on your blog this may be the reason why.  I am not seeing your blog in the reader.  For that I am sorry, I am going to inquire on how to remedy the situation.

I would like to hear from you if you think I am not seeing your posts please, seriously please use the comment section so I can get a handle on this problem.

Again, I am not ignoring anyone, I love to interact with all my fellow bloggers.  That is the life line in the WordPress community!

A Re-blog: Discouraged and Falling Apart — R-E-A-

I just had to share this here on my blog.

This post written by a young lady, Tina, (R.E.A.L. – Fighting 4 Authenticity was written honestly with great emotions. I feel you just may relate to her feelings about this very hard time we all are experiencing.

Tears. More tears. Over and over this happens. The days drag on and run together. The sadness, the confusion, the anger. I’ve felt more anger in the last few weeks than in the prior I-don’t-even-know-how-long.

via Discouraged and Falling Apart — R-E-A-L

A New Look For This Blog


Starting in the month of May this blog will be showing as a name: RTS.  The url will stay the same.  I am seriously looking at upgrading my plan to a paid one.

This change is one that I have been seriously thinking about for several months.  Sometimes change like this in a website can be detrimental.  I have been experimenting with different designs for a new logo.  

For this blog my focus with be “Mental Health”.  I created a new blog for all things Spiritual, Bible Prophecy A Study In.   For those who are interested in the study of the Scriptures I invite you to join me there too.

Now, I would like you to seriously give me some feedback.  I need all who read this to provide that using the comment section below.  Remember, without you this blog would be lifeless!

Also, I would like to say “Welcome” to all the new follows.  And a big “Thank you” to everyone!

The Crazy World Of Depression

carry-the-world“It’s okay to be crazy and scared and brave at the same time!”
― Kelly Epperson

Crazy Qoutes

There are those days when I think I just want to scream. Scream about what I don’t know, I just want to scream.

Then there are the days where I feel I could take on the world, have all the answers to life’s woes.  Reality though tells me that I don’t know what I am talking about.

Pills, pills, pills.  Take in the morning, take at supper time, take at bed time.  Green pill to get going, red pill to stop, I take more pills than I eat in calories.

Pardon me, but it is just one of those days that thoughts like these take over.  I try to stay positive in such a negative climate.

So, I will carry on, maybe tomorrow will be a day when the crazy world of depression won’t seem to be so bad!

A Day Of Appreciation!


“Nurses dispense comfort, compassion, and caring without even a prescription.”
– Val Saintsbury       Quotes For Nurses

I have had my share of a stay in the hospital.  There is one thing that made the stay endurable was the nurses on staff.  I marveled how they did their work, hour by hour, patient by patient.  They did the heavy lifting.  Yes, the doctors gave the orders, but, it was the nurses that saw to it to have those orders filled.

On the evening news last night near the end of the broadcast they showed a news clip.  It was so heart warming.  Somewhere in New York City at a certain set time in the evening people went to their balconies, stoops, and started clapping, it lasted at least ten minutes.  It was their unique way of thanking all the nurses, doctors, others on the front line in the battle with this virus.

I am thankful that we have such great warriors in medicine they are the healing hands that God has gifted.  They are there in the emergency rooms, the medicine floor, the operating theaters.

This is my way to say to all those nurses, “Thank you”!

I want to encourage you dear reader to find your unique way to say thank you to those on the front lines.  I have learned one thing about the WordPress community, they are some of the most creative people around.

So, please join me to raise a rousing clap of thunder and say “THANK YOU”!


Conquer or Surrender


Being challenged in life is inevitable, being defeated is optional. -Roger Crawford

At this time everyone is facing great challenges.  Every challenge is unique therefore it requires an unique plan to face it.

I have faced many challenges, sometimes I think that it is more than one person deserves.  I have broken bones, recovered from a motorbike accident as a passenger, loss of loved ones, marriages that have fallen apart.  

I look back on all of them and wonder how I made it through some of them.  I did hit a brick wall, a wall the crashed on me with my mental health.  For that challenge I decided not to conquer but, rather I surrendered to it.  My answer was attempted suicide by taking an overdose of sleeping pills.

I know now that lashing out in anger that is destructive, I have learned to channel my anger to achieve constructive results.  The former saw me burn relationships that could never be repaired.  The latter, I now explain the action that angered me, it is not directed to a person.  No name calling, no shaming, etc.,

Now, that doesn’t mean when I am challenge that I lay down like a door mat to be walked on.  It means I have learned in a constructive way when something, someone, has crossed boundaries.

So, once again I have to summon all that I have learned, focus on the situation, conquer the situation, and do not surrender to it!

The Detoxification Of My Mind


Woodson Merrell  “Often we see detox as a solitary pursuit, something we have to muscle up for and go it alone. But the truth is that it will be easier and healthier if you find a way to integrate your friends and family into the experience.”
― Woodson Merrell, The Detox Prescription: Supercharge Your Health, Strip Away Pounds, and Eliminate the Toxins Within

I feel safe in saying that all across the globe people’s stress level is probably on extra high.  Everything is at a complete standstill,  jobs, finances, social life, children to tend to and if school age try to teach them at home.

Even the children are stressed out, not being able to play and socialize with their friends. Pent up energy and no place to displace it.

Today when I woke up I decided that it would be the day to completely detox my mind.  Let me explain, in high school I took computer class, this is way before personal computers, one of the first thing we learned about programming was this, “garbage in, garbage out”.  So it is with the mind.

I have had my fill with news and the concentration of Covid-19. So I have been doing things to bring out all the toxic waste in my mind.  I finished reading two books, I prefer paper, but Kindle will do, so I downloaded the book “Fahrenheit 451”.  I am reading up on how a democracy can fall, remember Germany and Hitler.

My television was on, but, I found a science program that I like, “Wonders of The Solar System”, the host is Professor Brian Cox. His voice is calm and peaceful and I have begun to grasp so much about our solar system.

Later I am going to click on I Tunes and listen to Michael Buble.  My daughter gave me a CD of his, his music is great and it is also very relaxing.

I realize everyone will approach the detoxification of their mind differently, Yoga, meditation, hot tea, or any other method that helps let off all the toxic garbage that has built up since this lock down.

So, dear reader, I encourage you to take some time, find some ways to let go and cleanse your mind so that you will feel renewed!


Cabin Fever Anyone?


Where do we enroll in Life 101? Where are the classes dealing with the loss of a job, the death of a loved one, the failure of a relationship? Unfortunately, those lessons are mostly learned through trial by fire and the school of hard knocks. Les Brown

Over the past several days I have decided to make the most of being mandated stay indoors.

Here are some of the things I am doing to combat my cabin fever:

  • Exploring new music sounds. i.e., some forms of soft rock
  • New authors, new books different than I would normally seek out.
  • Avoid watching too many news channels
  • Take up again some of my crafts.  i.e. this is one you’ll find funny, I crochet afghans

Those are things I am doing to maintain my mental health 

So, I am curious on what you are doing to maintain your mental health?

Keeping Sane In An Abnormal Time


“The ability to continue moving when you are feeling scared, fearful or lazy is the sign of true mental strength.”
― Matthew Donnelly

I have now been in my house for approximately three weeks.  In the past I have fought pneumonia twice.  So, I feel that staying in is best for my psychical health.

The true test is finding enough interests to keep my mental health strong.  I have been reading more, also turning off news channels so I do not get an overload of Covid-19 news.  

I really cannot give advice to anyone about how to stay strong mentally during these trying times.  Every household has different situations.  Many have school age children at home.  Keeping children’s attention is a full time job, no play dates for the younger, too much screen time is not wise.  So, for these parents my heart goes out to you.

Millions across North America and the world find themselves facing rent/mortgages to pay, food to put on the table, clothes on their back.  This stress can keep you awake at night weighing heavily on a person’s mental health.

So, for all those who are facing hard times I will be thinking, praying for you! I hope you are able to keep mental health strong! 

The Construction Of A Blog


“We need a spark to lit a fire inside us. A spark is an inspiration to make art, a fear to find courage, and a pain to provoke strength. A spark is unplanned and unexpected incident that happens in the middle of your ordinary life. After that, it leaves a fire burning in your heart. A fire to achieve, a fire that will keep you going!”
― Jasz Gill –

I thought this might be interesting to some about how I go to write a post.

  1. Find a thought, a word

  2. Try to locate a picture. My favorite three sites are:  a)Pexels  b) Pixabay  c)Public Domain Pictures

  3. Search for a quote that encapsulates my topic.

  4. Write my post.

Those are the basic steps I use to construct my post.

Do you have a method you would use to write your post, if so what is your method?

I just thought this would be fun because at the moment everything is so seriously depressing!

Me Too, Me Too!


“Some of the most comforting words in the universe are ‘me too.’ That moment when you find out that your struggle is also someone else’s struggle, that you’re not alone, and that others have been down the same road.” – Unknown

Stop Stigma

One of the most encouraging moments for me is when I am reading different posts and come across the writings of what someone is going through, to find out you are not alone with the same struggle.

So, I continue reading on how they have battled their situation, the steps they have taken to help combat the struggle.  How they have had some of the same ups and downs with their mental health issues.

Even though I have never physically met the writers of the posts here in the WordPress community I find that there is a bond that takes place as they share their inner most feelings knowing that maybe someone might scoff at them.

I know this may seem strange to some, but when I realize that others are facing the same struggles, it is like my world is a bit brighter, my step slightly has more bounce,  a weight lifted from shoulders.

So, to all those who feel that they are alone in their struggles, please know that in this community of bloggers that their are others standing up and saying, “Me too”!

A Re-Blog: What Causes Social Anxiety? — No Stress

What Causes Social Anxiety? Social Anxiety Disorder is a fear of social situations that involve interaction with other people. People who have social anxiety often fear that they are being watched, judged, and evaluated by other people. It is often mistaken for shyness or low self-esteem. There are many different causes of social anxiety, however,…

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Really, That’s Not Normal


Vintage Brain –

“So, this is how it’s become? This is how I’ve become? A walking contradiction? I’m surrounded by people and feel alone. I claim to crave a bit of normalcy but now that I have some, it’s like I don’t know what to do with it, I don’t know how to be a normal person anymore.”
― Gayle Forman, Where She Went

If I am honest things are definitely not normal.  Upside down, inside out, topsy turvy, mad house, those are just some adjectives to describe the new world we are living in.

Gone is the outstretched hand to shake another.  The warm hug from someone we love.  Travel not advised, borders being closed.  Favorite restaurants closed to sitting in to dine.  Places we love to gather in shuttered until further notice. 

Being bi – polar is a world that is hard to understand.  Highs, lows, mood stabilizers, sleeping pills, a whole host of other medications too many to list.

It would be easy to allow myself to sink in sheer panic, nightmares of it being the end of the world, or the opposite, refusing to believe that there really is no danger.

The brain is a marvelous thing how it protects us during times of great distress.  Listening to it though is an exercise all on it’s own.

Nobody really knows how long it will be before we go back to what we recognize as normal.  Yes, there are those who think they have the answer, but, they are the minority.

So, my life will not change much.  I only go out for shopping and doctor’s appointments.  I have resigned myself that no matter what it will be “steady as it goes”!

Frustration Is Thy Name!


“I clench my teeth as tears come. I am fed up. I am fed up with tears and weakness. But there isn’t much I can do to stop them. ~ ‘Tris”
― Veronica RothDivergent

The word “frustration” is the first thing to come to my mind at this time.  My best friend is feeling it along with being totally bored.

Parents are definitely feeling frustrated, at wit’s end, trying to find day care for their young children.  

Businesses are looking at complete bankruptcy if they have to stay closed too long.  Some are able to keep wages flowing to their stay at home workers.  Other businesses are pouring millions of their own money to help with health care supplies, etc.,

Let me be frank, governments are frustrated for they have really never faced this type of emergency.  They are enacting measures they are not sure will do much good.  Yes, limiting the amount of travel, the size of gatherings will ebb the flow of this virus, with the hope of flattening the curve.

***There are some in government who need to take a step back, keep quiet, and if you are going to speak to the public for God’s sake have the facts.  The citizens expect their government to tell the truth, not spinning conspiracies and misinformation.***

In North America records have been broken when it comes to people applying for employment insurance.

I am also somewhat frustrated, not really for me, but for all those who have no one to go to for support mentally.  Face it, it is somewhat assuring to have others to lean on in a time of crisis.

So, I will look deep down to find my inner strength, lean on it, keep myself motivated, and just take a deep breath!

Insecurity, Depression


Depression lies. It tells you you’ve always felt this way, and you always will. But you haven’t, and you won’t. Halley Cornell

Wisdom Quotes About Depression

A preacher friend use to say this “when you are at the end of your rope, tie a knot and hold on.

All through my life I have never liked myself.  Too many things that I thought that I wish I could change them.

As I grew older and started to play music in different churches, etc., I learned how to mask my true feelings.  I could play the Gospel Songs, I would enjoy the moment. It was after the meeting was over, then without anyone around I would begin to feel that heaviness come over me again, again, and again.  Many times I would just wish/pray that I could pass away while I was sleeping.

Growing up there was no “putting on airs” about us.  Mom was a great cook, she always had a hot meal for us.  It was always around six p.m.. We sat together as a family, phone calls from friends was a taboo.  

Then I started travelling with the evangelist.  I found myself in strange situations, sitting down with my hosts for a meal.  There I looked and there were strange silverware, no not strange in how they looked, but, it was that there was more than one fork, etc., 

Glassware was the same.  I learned how to wait until I saw how the host/s started to eat their meals.  I copied their movements. 

Also with what was served as the meal.  I knew better than not to insult the host/s by not eating the meal.  So, I started developing a different taste palette of foods. One food that I soon learned to love was jumbo shrimp.

When it comes to crowds I still have a difficult time mingling with people.  I am self conscious of my teeth.  My teeth are crooked, they just are ugly as far as I am concerned. Because of that insecurity I do not like my picture taken.

I could spend more time writing on this post but the list is way too long.  

So, I am always reminding myself that there are other people who probably have insecurities just like me!


A Personal Message


Dear Reader:

These are turbulent times.  Times of distress, uncertainty, emotions are running high, many not sure how they will keep a roof over their head and food on their table for their family.

Even though we must keep our distance physically we can give our support to our family, friends, and neighbors by picking up the phone and just saying “how are you doing?”

For all those single parents who cannot miss work, seeking help with child care I would like to say I feel your pain.  I am experiencing this with my daughter and my three grandchildren.  Schools have closed for the rest of the school year, extra curricular activities cancelled.  Just yesterday she wrote “wishing you lived closer”.  She knows I would be there in a heart beat.

For all those who consider themselves in the senior categories, many stores are opening for one hour before all other shoppers just for the seniors, for those who are at risk.

Governments are doing what they believe is best but still it does not calm frayed nerves.

As for me I was suppose to have two doctors appointments and both were re-booked for a month from now.

So, if I could I would offer all those who are hurting a warm hug of assurance.  Remember, wherever you live you are not facing this troublesome time alone!

Stay safe!

Fear What?


The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.

Franklin D. Roosevelt

It was during the 1960’s I must have been only about six or seven years old.  The only thing that divided Windsor from Detroit was the Detroit River.

History tells us it was during the riots for civil rights.  I can remember seeing smoke coming from the streets of Detroit.  During that time people were rightly fearing that all the disruption would begin to seep into the streets of Windsor, Ontario.

Fast forward to the 1980’s, Ronald Reagan was President.  News coverage began talking about a new cancer, this was different than had ever been seen before.  The news media began to label it as, “the gay cancer”.  Today we call it AIDS!

Fear began to set in among gay communities from all across North America.  Preachers were banging their pulpits calling the epidemic God’s wrath on Gay people. Death was almost certain if a person was infected from the virus.  The virus attacks the immune system within the body.  As time goes by, reports begin to come across the news mediums about heterosexual women in the continent Africa also infected with AIDS.  People feared rightly if they were to be infected by this virus. 

Fear can work both ways, it can motivate, or it can halt, people.  Fear that motivates scientists to work to find a antidote for disease.  It can also cause a person to completely stop in their tracks fearful of moving forward, fearing the sunrise on the next day.

We have seen also SARS, Middle Eastern Respiratory Syndrome Coronavirus (MERS-CoV), now the world is dealing with a pandemic named Corona Virus.

Fear sometimes overrides logic, which we are seeing with the hoarding of toilet paper and paper towels.  If logic was in place a person would only buy for the amount they need for a stated length of time.

I realize people are fearful, it is just human nature.  I feel I can honestly say, the world will survive this pandemic.

So, for me each time I feel fear of this situation I will take and stretch with a deep breath! 

A Re-Blog: 7 things you need to know about Bipolar — Mental health from the other side

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