“When I look outside, I feel nothing,
When I look inside, I feel Nothing!
Lockdown of Emotions!
Completely Blank, its Black everywhere…
Suffocating, claustrophobic, saturation point is crossed!
My Happiness is due…
I Will Live for that!
― Somya Kedia
A year ago I wrote about the feelings of being in lockdown in a post, Obsession and Covid-19 and looking back I really don’t see much difference.
Oh, I forgot the vaccines. But really, has there been that much change. I am still in my house, still have to wear a mask and still the number of people I can meet with at and in one place is limited.
I started this post yesterday and for some reason did not get back to write the rest.
Letter to The Reader:
I have some thoughts about the younger generation, no, not what is wrong or right, just thoughts from my own life.
I was thinking of my younger life and here are some thoughts I would like to pass on.
- Before you settle down take time to see your own country. I have found that many never get beyond the area the were raised. I found that my country is more diverse than I ever imagined. Also, I found that people no matter where you go love to connect and share their thoughts. You really can learn a lot about life if you just listen to others.
- Cherish every moment, life is not a given and can throw you a curve ball. I do not regret my decision to pick up and travel for I have great memories, not many pictures, but I wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world.
- Be open for everyone. My pastor once said, “strangers are friends you haven’t met yet”, it is so true!
- Learn from everyone, there are many lessons we can learn that will avoid us from learning it the hard way. Many things I have learned, I have learned them the hard way, the long way, and as the saying goes, “too old smart…”.
I have been more reflective over this past year. Maybe, it is that I am reaching the age of being called a senior. Or maybe, I have spent too much time thinking.
So dear reader, I hope you may find something worth keeping from my post. There are so many great people here in this WordPress community!
So, how has it been going for you in the last year?
You may have noticed that my posts have been intermittent. First when I don’t have a subject I do not write. Also, I have been doing quite a bit of reading. The list of books I have read mostly deal with one subject matter, the man in the White House. I have gone back to hard cover rather than E-Books. There is something about actually feeling the pages when you turn them.
It has also been difficult for me to write at times because of pain generating from my hip. I can only sit at the lap top for a limited time. My medications at supper time usually means that I do not post much after about six at night.
I went to receive a flu shot. The pharmacist said they are expecting a high turn out for it. She also mentioned that this winter presents a troublesome worry, will people be able to distinguish between the flu and Covid-19. This could overwhelm the ERs in some cities.
Some provinces are returning to shut downs because of the numbers are on the rise with positive infections. I believed that lifting some restrictions was premature. I understand that people want to get back to their lives the way it was before the pandemic. Here in Saskatchewan there are reports of Covid-19 appearing in the school system. This leaves me with great concern about my grandchildren, but, in all children in general.
So dear reader these are just some random thoughts about what has been occupying my mind lately.
“Sharing will enrich everyone with more knowledge.”
There is one area of blogging I would love to see used more, the comment section. I love the back and forth that it creates. Sharing our thoughts openly without worry of being rejected.
I sometimes receive more likes from comments I have made on other’s blogs. Some comments are light banter, some serious, and some just thoughts about the post I just finished reading.
So dear reader, go ahead, share your thoughts, use that comment section. Don’t worry they won’t bite!
“How wonderful it is to be able to write someone a letter! To feel like conveying your thoughts to a person, to sit at your desk and pick up a pen, to put your thoughts into words like this is truly marvelous.”
― Norwegian Wood
I would like to re-introduce an old idea, one that was personal, one that could be intimate, something that required thought, an effort. This is pre-email, the idea is old fashion letter writing.
I can remember looking forward to receiving a letter from my mother, a good friend. It was the way to keep in touch with love ones, and friends. During times of war fiances would write the husband to be on the battle field. They would take out their best stationery, find their finest pen, write a intimate letter. Then before sealing it they would take one of their best perfumes and put a touch of it on the letter.
I love letter writing, if you concentrate you can create your own style or develop it into an art. I love to receive letters, it tells you that the person took time to assemble their thoughts, took time to sit to write the letter. Then take an effort to put it into the postal system.
During these long hours of being confined to our limited spaces how great it would be to take some personal time to share a letter of ones thoughts. Prepare the envelope and drop it in a local mail box.
So, maybe we can go back to past times and bring them forward to this time and space!
Introspection is the examination of one’s own conscious thoughts and feelings. In psychology, the process of introspection relies exclusively on observation of one’s mental state, while in a spiritual context it may refer to the examination of one’s soul. Wikipedia
If I was a believer of Astrological Signs I would be a Virgo. There is a personality trait that is considered a negative, that being too critical of others. For me that is so true, I can be harshly critical of others around me. It is something that for the past amount of time I have been fighting with everything I have.
For the past few blog posts has been my effort of finding quality traits of my being. Yes, it isn’t easy for when you have been focused on all the rotten traits changing your focus is a very daunting task.
I am not saying that I will never have bad days again for I know that is very much likely. I know that I will be on medication for the rest of my life. Medications is what keeps me from sliding backwards.
I am not a professional, not a Physician, Psychiatrist, or even a counselor so what works for this human being may not be the path for others to follow.
So, follow this blogger’s travel of introspection!