“I have never seen battles quite as terrifyingly beautiful as the ones I fight when my mind splinters and races, to swallow me into my own madness, again.” ― Nicole Lyons, Hush
Since Sunday night the world once more has been made to listen about someone wanting to commit suicide. Meghan Markle, most would think that she has it all, everything a princess could want. A great husband, a son, and soon one more will be added to the family. Wrong, totally wrong, we never know what happens in any household after the door is closed. To hear talk that she didn’t feel safe, yes, in her own home, Meghan did not feel safe. How she told Prince Harry that she didn’t want to be alone because she wasn’t sure if she would commit suicide. What a horrible, utterly ugly way that must have felt like. To have everything that most are envy of and not having the strength to continue, not to even trust herself alone.
We have heard this story many times over and still we are coping with understanding it. Or, could it be that they really don’t want to hear it, to come face to face with it, to look at it’s horrendous face. Once more they try to push it behind the tapestry and say they will deal with it privately. How many does it take before they will finally call in the troops? Princess Diana, Prince Harry and others told to hush it up and will we deal with it after the door closes.
I don’t normally listen to those type of interviews, and I didn’t. I caught the clips of it on different news shows. Meghan’s story seemed familiar to me. The feeling of not being safe in your own four walls. Keeping things under the rug because the world doesn’t talk about issues such as, suicide or suicidal thoughts. I remember the hush tones around my grandmother’s house concerning her brother-in-law who they found laying under the exhaust of the car in the garage.
I entered into grade ten and things were unbearable around my home. It became quite contentious between my dad and myself. I found myself going and coming home in the dark. Anything to avoid him, to avoid his temper tantrums similar to that of a three year old who has been told he cannot have any more candy. Years later my mother told me that when he was still living at home he would lose his temper with his own parents. From what I understand it became violent.
My attempted suicide was my alarm bell going off, sounding loudly that I just can’t live anymore. I didn’t know where or who I could talk with. I didn’t want to seek someone out only to be put off, I didn’t want to feel rejected because I knew that pain quite well. To my dad I was never going to be good enough. Actually, he wanted me to work in a factory with a dead end job. Furious because I did not go to a high school that taught the trades. I picked a secondary school that majored in business and such.
According the World Health Organization over 800,000 people die of suicide each year.
Close to 800 000 people die due to suicide every year, which is one person every 40 seconds. Suicide is a global phenomenon and occurs throughout the lifespan. Effective and evidence-based interventions can be implemented at population, sub-population and individual levels to prevent suicide and suicide attempts. There are indications that for each adult who died by suicide there may have been more than 20 others attempting suicide.
Suicide is a global phenomenon; in fact, 79% of suicides occurred in low- and middle-income countries in 2016. Suicide accounted for 1.4% of all deaths worldwide, making it the 18th leading cause of death in 2016.
How many more times will it take for the world to understand that there is a epidemic raging and hollering for someone, somebody to help.
Other celebrities like, Robin Williams, Amy Winehouse, and even a chef who had a show on CNN. Each of them hiding, suffering in silence with their story, their story that goes with them to their graves.
So dear reader, will they ever understand this pain that so many are dealing with. Each one has a story, has a beginning, a failure, and successes. And the final chapter that is written is one of death by suicide.
Suicide Hotline Numbers
Canada Suicide Prevention Service – 833-456-4566
In the United States – National Suicide Prevention Lifeline – 1-800-273-TALK (8255)